Lost days, pictures fade

YOU ARE MY BIGGEST JACKPOT

2009-12-31T00:18:00.000-08:00

yen & teng

you are my biggest
JACKPOT
friendship forever

HAPPY 2010!!!

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muackss for everything

❤~our album~❤
and

forever we will be ..

STEAMBOAT QUEEN!!

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS+HAPPY 2010

2009-12-23T22:23:00.000-08:00

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

I wish you were here

2009-12-22T14:54:00.000-08:00

"it takes TWO to whisper quietly"

The stars lean down to kiss you..

And I lie awake and miss you..

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere..

Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly..

But I'll miss your arms around me..

I'd send a postcard to you, dear..

Cause I wish you were here..

I'll watch the night turn light blue..

But it's not the same without you..

Because it takes two to whisper quietly..

The silence isn't so bad..

Till I look at my hands and feel sad..

Cause the spaces between my fingers..

Are right where yours fit perfectly..

I'll find repose in new ways..

Though I haven't slept in two days..

Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone..

But drenched in vanilla twilight..

I'll sit on the front porch all night..

Waist deep in thought because when..

I think of you I don't feel so alone..

I don't feel so alone..

As many times as I blink..

I'll think of you tonight..

(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)

I'll think of you tonight..

When violet eyes get brighter..

And heavy wings grow lighter ..

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again..

And I'll forget the world that I knew..

But I swear I won't forget you..

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past..

I'd whisper in your ear:

"Oh darling I wish you were here"

Owl City - Vanilla Twilight

never regret anything that made you smile

2009-12-22T07:11:00.000-08:00

never regret anything dat made you smile

I've posted this note before but removed it..

And what made me changed my mind now?

Because I finally realised I have no regrets with the times I am blessed wit him ..
And tis is what i wrote in my personal blog...

"When I think back of this..

I know there will be a smile on me..."

I am truly touched when He..
..bought me twisties...

..help me to clean up my fan...

..unexpectedly walked the Connaught PasarMalam with me and we were caught in de rain....

..ate the tauhu busuk with me..

..spent the nigths on my lousy bed instead of his comfy one..

..had steamboat with me..

..make me coffee..

..kissed me while we are at his shop and there are cctv all around.. ..worried that I will get cold..

..had the pumpkin tong sui I boiled though he dont like ginger.....
buy me the SinChan ermmm..dont know what is that..but its so nice of him..

..picnic with me at house..

..just lazing around watching DvDs at home..his and mine...

..his look when i told him my house got no towel for him..

..the look on him when he walked out from the shower and I didn't off the fan..

..how he never show his anger to me though he is totally pissed
..and hahahas the 3pm sms..

The hugs..The kisses..Eveything..

Eventhough we are not contacting each other now..

But I've grown to stop blaming myself and anyone anymore..
I am just happy that YES-I FELL IN LOVE WIT HIM DEEPLY!!
Finally, hahas..I admit it..

I am so anticipating the coming of 2010!!

I know it will be a good good year for me!!

Away from all the emotional messiness as I am too done with it!!!

Can u forgive yourself?

2009-12-21T07:39:00.000-08:00

The defects and faults of the mind are like wounds in the body,

After all imaginable care has been taken to heal them up,

Still there will be a scar left behind.

French writer

Francois La rochefoucauld

The wound caused by Love cannot be healed by somebody else..

It is not a wound of the body..

It is a wound of the mind..

A wound that only you can find and that only you can heal..

There is only one question that matters..

There is only one really important question..

Can you forgive yourself?

It is said dat time heal all wounds..

I do not agree..

The wounds remain..

In time the mind protecting it's sanity

Covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens..

But its never gone..

Rose kennedy

That day, I was just mad...

I was just being childish...

I said, “I hate you”...

I thought so many times that I wish ...

I wish that I had said ...

I love you

Loves Just Hurts

2009-09-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

I started to wonder...

Why love's always so complicated?

Why love has to cause so much pain?

I was told that..

Love is simple..

Love doesn't hurt..

Love isn't selfish and above all that..

Love gives meaning to everything...

But all I see now that am old enough is that..
Love is just so unfair...
Love is full of pain...
Love is frightening..
Love just Hurts.....

<3<3 SUNDAY <3<3!!!

2009-06-16T13:22:00.000-07:00

Should've upload last 2 days..hehe..
But..hehe..there's noting like a good lazy day on d sofa loo..
Okie..here comes d journey of d day..
On last Sunday..
I went to Pavilion to watch "Nite At D Museum 2-Battle of the Smithsonian" !!!!

Very nice!!!!
So funny-I laughed like...

Muahahhaha!!!

LOL!!

Im not sure bout U but for me..

D funniest part was wen d tiny little Octavius ran towards d building..

LOL..he ran like mad but in real-life..

LOL..cant describe how funny it is!!
Must watch it on Ur own ya!!
And anyone dat wanna watch it,feel free to ring me up ya!

Cox Yo!! A great movie!!

Will wanna watch it d 2nd-10th times!!

After d movie, V went to Clinique..to get my freebies!!

Dats my main purpose of going to Pavilion loo..

Hehe!!

Den went to get my Coach!!
Why Coach?? LOL..
Dunno..I just preffered it!!!
Tis I gotto Muacks my another Luply Angel-Joanne!!

She is d one dat provoked me into buying tis bag!!!

Hehe..she bought a LV for herself n she told me..

LOL..

Im not young anymore..

Wats d big deal of buying someting nice to ourself!
She is so rite!! N yup,bag purchased!!

And Haha..b4 d movie..

AGAIN..V went to WONG KOK CHAR CHAN TENG for our brunch-BREAKFAST+LUNCH!!

And Yo!!!

Im a member now!!

D food is okie but d environment is Jux superb!!

Great place to hang out wit besties for non-stop gossipping!!!

Hohohoohoho!!!

After d eat+movie+shop+gossips!! Muahahaha!!

V went to Four Seasons Cafe situated at Wangsa Maju-Hoho!!
Did I get d name correctly?
V r so lost looking for d cafe!!

Hehe..

Thanks to my MeiMei-Chilam!!
Blessedly I recall he been there before!!

Call for help-DIRECTIONS!!

And Yo!! V sat at d "Winter-Season"

UNPREPARED!!
V r all wit sleeve-less shirts n shorts!!
And d temperature in there is YO!!

15 degrees celcius n below!!!
Its like Quatro..there r four part in d cafe!

And tis are wat V ordered!!! Our dinner!!

Tis is mine!!! Im addicted to salmon!!

And here comes d SAVIOUR of d NITE!!!
Our pot of HOT rose tea!! Haha!!

Four of us but wit 2 tiny little cup cup!! Cute!!
And V gotto finish our meals FAST before it becomes cold!!!
Hahahaha!!

Den Yo!!
D Beer-ing Time!!

Got home around ermmm 3am..
So so tired but its so worthy!!
Looking forward for our coming weekends!!
YEAH-
NEXT STOP-BANGSAR-eat seafood!!

But tis coming Sunday-Father's Day..so nervous!!
My FIRST time to celebrate it wit my Dad+Bro!!
Lord-my Abba Father!! Thanks 4 everyting!!!!

MY "贵人"!!!

2009-06-11T00:30:00.000-07:00

Before I start to write anyting..
I jux hope dat those who will be reading tis..
LOL...
Not to take it too personal and get offended..

Tis is onli my point of view..
Plus..NiaSing!!! TIS IS MY BLOG!!
I write watever I feel like writing!!!
U felt otherwise??!!
Den U go n write them in Ur blog!!
Muahhahaahahahahaha!!!
I dun get my nickname BB YEN easily ohh!!

BB stands for BAH BAI..in cantonese!!
Meaning-ARROGANT-hahahaha!!!

Okie!!
Tis happened eermmm..
Let me check ya..on my previous posts..
Yup..almost a month ago!!

I went to have my hair-wash as usual at a salon..
Den an auntie who was there came to sit next to me..
And asked do I mind if she got someting to tell me..

I said no..
And she asked for my birth-date..
Den I oredi knew she is a "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie"!!
Wich previously I wun entertained all these stuffs..
But I was very emo for dis last few months..
So i told her ..
And she told me lotsa tings dat Muahahhahaa!!!
I believed in it as it was so NiaSing-ly accurate!!!!

Den I gave d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie" hahaha!!!
A birth-date of someone I care so badly..
And regard her as my younger-sister!!!
And instantly d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie"!! said..
YEAH!!! SHE IS MY "贵人 a.k.a. someone dat will bring good luck to me"!!

I MUST STICK TO HER
SHE WILL HELP ME TO ACHIEVE LOTSA GOOD TINGS IN LIFE!!

Funny is..Almost everyone around me dat knows her as well..
Asked me to STAY AWAY FROM HER!!!
As Yeah..She did do lotsa hurtful stuffs to me but..
Dats why I always say dunno its for good or bad..
I can easily forgives..
So Yup!! A sori is all dats needed!!
And d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie"even gave me a very nice pendant!
She said d pendant can away me from hurtful stuffs..

But I felt bad afterwards..
I din wear d pendant on..
Muahhaahahahaha..
Becox I dun have a nice necklace for it!!!
D pendant is reali so nice!!

But in the heart..I was struggling..
To wear or not to wear..

So,the next day..I ring up my angel-Sherry...
Eventhough after talking to her..
Im still...struggling...
Cox I talked to Joanne n E-Teng as well..
They are both free-thinkers..
They even asked me to help them to give their birth-date to d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie"

I reali did changed..
I fooled around and played wit ppls feelings
Becoming a true bitch!!
Funny is frens around me said..
GOOD!! FINALLY U R SMART!!
So I tot!! Yeah!!!
Wat d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie" was so RIGHT!!
As d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie" said my life will be surrounded by lotsa NiaSing gugus!!
So before they hurt me..
YEAH!! They wanted a game..GIVE THEM A REAL UNFORGETABLE ONE!!
And "she-my 贵人" r always beside me giving me advices!!
Like playing a chess..haha..d next step I shld take!!

Den YEAH!!
Comes d awful truth!!
Sherry dear,did u pray for me and ask our Abba Father to open up my eyes?!!
Hahahaha!!
Or d Lord sees d strungles I have inside me...

One ting I luv in Jesus is HE is so loving!!!
HE never FORCE us to choose HIS ways..
HE lets us to decide it on our own
And those dat say..
CEH..NO LOH..BECOME A CHRISTIAN..TIS KENOT DAT KENOT!!!
LOL!!!
Actuali,d Lord is onli telling us..tings V shldnt do..
So dat V wun end up in some lousy unwanted misseries..
But in d end..the decision is on our own hands..

So Yeah..on one nite out..

I found out..d TRUE SIDE..of tis sister of mine!!
MY "贵人 a.k.a. someone dat will bring good luck to me"!!
Im not onli hurt but felt like a fool!!
All these while..Goshhh!!!
Im truli left speechless!!!
And dis jux prove how TRUTHFUL r d "算命婆 a.k.a. count-life auntie" words!!!
Dat "she" is my MY "贵人 a.k.a. someone dat will bring good luck to me"!!
NIASING!!!

I do admit I've committed lotsa sins..
Im not a good example as His child..
But Im truli thankful n grateful..
dat yes..
HE DIN GIVES UP ON ME!!
NEVE IN A SECOND!!
AMEN!!!

So,Tis tot me a very valueable lessons..
In d future..someone comes up to me n tell me my past n wat I can do to change my future to be a BETTER ONE!!

MY ANSWER:

"MAY GOD BLESS U-AMEN"

Be Magnified!!

2009-06-06T13:30:00.000-07:00

Wow!!
Now onli I have d time to reali update my blog..
Not dat im busy wit anyting but reali LOTSA NiaSing tings happened n worse...
Yeah!!! All in a few days!!!!!

Lotsa unwanted truth being told..
Before I can recover from one den another one comes along..

Betrayed+Fooled+Used by those I truli regard as my frens...
And one dat I regard as SISTER!!!!
LOL!!!
Got me so so so...SPEECHLESS!!!!

Not onli Im filled wit hurt but LOL..Hatred is all over me!!
Everyday I wake up..
First ting dat comes to my mind is..hoho!!

"Wen will all tis NiaSing ppl get their BLESSINGS?!!!!" haha!!

Im feeling so so helpless n lost...
I cried till LOL..my eyes hurts so terribly muchie!!

I dunno whom I can ever trust...
Everyone seems so fake dat it realli scare me..

and
Not onli I dun like but I hate d now me...

D one dat always filled wit hatred+revenge!!!!

And..hehe..lastnite!!
I sent a message to my beloved angel-Sherry!!

And I asked her to pray for me...

Tis morning wen I wake up..
The indescribable hurts is still very fresh in me..
So I decided to pray on my own..

And Im reminded of the below verses..

Job 1:12
The LORD said to Satan,"Very well,then, everyting he has is in ur hands,but on d man himself DO NOT LAY A FINGER

Job 2:1o
...Shall V accept good from God n not trouble?

Job 1:12..The Lord said DO NOT LAY A FINGER..
Yes,In every trials-hurts-betrayal-fooled-used-
I knw I CAN and WILL overcome ALL these NiaSing moments as I knw YEAH!!

The LORD is IN-CHARGED!!!

To my dearest ABBA FATHER ...
I have made U too small in my eyes..
Forgive me..
And I have believed in a lie..
Dat U were unable to help me...
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong..
Heal my heart and show Urself strong..
And in my eyes n with my song..
O Lord, be magnified!!!

Be magnified, O Lord!!
U r highly exalted!!
And there is nothing U can't do!!!
O Lord, my eyes are on U..
Be magnified,O Lord..Be magnified!!

I have leaned on the wisdom of men
O Lord,Please forgive me..
And I have responded to them..
Instead of Ur light and Ur mercy..
But now, O Lord, I see my wrong..
Heal my heart and show Urself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord be magnified!!!

Tis is a very meaningful song..
http://www.imeem.com/people/H5I-u-m/music/pp7Vwm-x/don-moen-don-moen-be-magnifiedmp3/

(P/S:Just now Alan said after he read my blog...he got very scare of me ohh...cox haha..seems like im a very fierce gal ooo...so..how is tis post? haha..better le mah?)

TIMA KASIH!!!

2009-06-01T05:07:00.000-07:00

IN TIS NIASING WORLD DATS FULL WITH FAKERS

DARE TO BE REAL!!!

BUT YEAH~~~

TIMA KASIH@LIU LIE MA KA JE" TO ALL THESE FAKERS!!!

sherry

2009-05-19T14:30:00.000-07:00

Sui Po..

U r the one dat I know I can act like a complete idiot with..

And no matter wat, U will stand there laughing wit me...

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(or NiaSing..U r actually laughing at me!!! Hahahaha!!)

Sui Po..

When Im straying away from HIS presence..

U r the one dat always reminded me dat HE still cares..

Dat HE stills loves me..

Because..HE blesses me wit U....

(Life been reali hard on me..till I dunno where to start with!!)

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(Hahahaha..The attacks from d "OLD ASS @ LUCIFAT")

(Muahahaha...knw who mou?? Getting stronger+ stronger)

(N being the NiaSing me!! LOL..almost fell into his traps!!)

(The "shen jui pai" case)

(U know wich of Ur words dat trully knocks me up dat day ?)

(Wen de "count-life woman a.k.a shuen meng po" said all those stuffs to me..)

(Which Muahahahaha!!! I NiaSingly believe it 100%)

(Wen U asked me..)

(Guess who is behind her??)

(And U answered..)

(Is the NiaSing "OLD ASS @ LUCIFAT")

Sui Po..

U r there to go thru lotsa rough times with me..

(Hahahaha!!!)

(How many times did I got U into d police station ya??!!)

(If Im not mistaken..2 times ya..Hahahha!!)

(I jus dunno wat I will do if U wasn't there for me)

Sui Po..

Though ya..

We hardly see each other..

But funny is I know..

U will always be there for me!!!

So U knw wat?

I really NiaSingly Lup U!!!

Hahahahaha!!!

And Yeah..Tis is her~~~My beloved angel!!~~Sherry~~

tired + sick

2009-05-15T14:20:00.000-07:00

There is a point in my life..

Wen I get so NiaSing-ly tired of trying to fix everyting...

Trying to make eveyone happy...

Now..Wen I finally decide to quit doing so..

It's just realiszing..YEAH!!

I dun absofarkinglutely need all these NiaSing people!!

Wit all the NiaSing PIG-SHIT they bring to my life!!
FARK-OFF!!!

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Most frens always tink dat Im a tough cookie!!
Muahahahaha!!!!
Just dat I never let u all see me cry..
And I come off strong...
It doesnt mean dat I din't fall asleep crying...
And eventhough I act likes noting's wrong...
Maybe..Hahaha..Maybe..Im really good at lying...

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Im so sick of pretending to be okie...

But..Yeah..
I never know how "STRONG" I am...
Till yes...lately..tis few days...
Being "STRONG" is the onli choice I am left....

Wen will all tis pain just go away???

P/S:Sherry..da "shen jui pai" topic..I haven reali knw wat to write yet...maybe I oredi got de idea..hahaha..but jux dunno how to write them out..my next post will definately on it!!!

DUNNO WHY

2009-05-15T03:00:00.000-07:00

LOL..My house is in a speechless-ly terribly messy state!!
Hehe!! Should've started to clean the house tis noon but...Hoho!!
Busy~Busy facebook-ing loo till now!!!
I've been freakingly NiaSing-ly..Hahaha..moody tis few days..++!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D worse part is I dunno why!!!!!!
??????????????????????????!!!!!

Funny ya??!!
Im not joking...I reali dunno why...
Will it be because of :
a)..my family??
b)..my studies??
c)..my financial situation-$$$$??
d)..my ever-complicated relationship??

I really dunno....Maybe its all of d above!!!! Hahahaha!!
Im sori ya to all of U dat gotto witness d awful side of me!!!! ............................
Muahahahaa!!! NiaSing ah!! Always say wanna see me drunk mah...
Now dat I got NiaSing-ly drunk!! U all got worried!!! Hahaha!!!
Anyway..Muacckkkssss to all of u!!!

So I went to Pavilion to shop shop wit Katty on Wednesday!!
Yeah!! Shopping is one of the BEST way to cheer up moods!!!

Agree mah??!! Hahahaha!!
Just be there-Pavilion..
The enviroment is just ermmm....Great!!
So calming!! Hahahaha!!
We had our lunch at DOME.. .. I tend to eat alot when Im moody...
I've been to DOME at KLCC n TIMES SQUARE for numerous times but the DOME at Pavilion..
Ermm..I have the feeling of serenity being there~~~
Free from disturbance from all de man-made madness!! Hahahaha!!
Maybe becox everyting there is just so quiet!!! Hahahaha!!!

CLINIQUE~~~ ~~ bought some stuffs there ~~
But even after d shopping spree..Im still feeling.. ...and Yeah..drunk AGAIN lastnite!!

Im feeling veli lost...as if I wish to run away n hide in a place dat I can be alone.......................

Actuali..after talking to Sherry on Wednesday morning..I oredi knew d reason why I got so terribly moody but loh..Just dat I dunwan to admit it..Wat izzit???!!

Will only elaborate bout it in the next post loh..

If not later u all complain ..

"WHY SO MANY WORDS DE??!! WHY SO LONG DE!!"

Rite mou?? Hahahaha!!

~ for you ~

2009-05-11T21:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday Mother's Day was just AWESOME!!!! Hahahaha!!
Wouldn't want to elaborate more on dat...just forget it ......... it caused my mood freakingly down... from lastnite..or should say from last noon till tis morning...so so so down!!!

But thanks to my new MEI MEI @ CHI LAM!! Hahaha!!!
After chatting wit him.. my mood becomes better!!!
Sometimes it's reali weird n strange ya..U chat chat wit someone u dun reali close to...but U will be more honest wit them bout ur feelings den those u have known for some time!!!
Den i went to college loo at noon..hehe..skipped class for few times..and muacks muacks to luply AnnChee n Valerie..Im feeling tremendously great!!!! Both of them are just so superb sweet!!!!
Blessing knowing them!!!

So YEAH!! Mention bout de class..YEAH!!! I've got assignments to do!!
ASSIGNMENTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Below are all the assignments dat i need to do and muahahahahaha!!!
HAVENT EVEN STARTED YET!!!!
LAW - pass up tomolo!! ~~~ YEAH!! ~~~
BUSINESS STUDIES - individual assignment to pass up tis wednesday n d group assignment
end of tis month!! ENGLISH LITERATURE - 25th May!!!!!
.............................................................................................................

...And the NiaSing part is..I need to go out tonite!!! HAHAHAHA!!!

But d reason Im writing tis is not to bring up bout my assignments loo..hoho!!!!
It's bout some freaquently questions asked by frens..
COX I HAVEN'T BEEN HANGING OUT WIT SOME OF MY BESTIES !!
N V R PLANNING TO MEET UP SOON..so TIS IS FOR U ALL YA!!!
PLEASE DUN ASK ME THE BELOW QUESTIONS!!!!

1) HOW'S LIFE LATELY?
-i've been thru lotsa Niasing moments!!!
So I dun feel like talking bout it cox I hate to recall it!!

2)SEEING SOMEONE?
-no n absofarkinglutely not interested!!!

3)WHY ??!!!!
-I ANSWERED-NO-NOT INTERESTED..FULL STOP!!!

Hahaha..wanna write more but gotto go n take my bath loo... muackkksssss!!!!!

HATE (VS) MISS!!

2009-04-08T07:24:00.000-07:00

Most people will say it will make us feel bad wen v hate someone..
As for me..it feels worse wen U r missing someone..
Wen U hate someone..EASY!!

U can ring up Ur bestie n curse those lousy gugus/bitches to their 18th generations!!
Hohohohooho..it surely feels good after bursting out those grudge U have in the heart!
Dun U tink so?
But wen U miss someone..who can U tell?

No one...
U can only keep it deep in Ur heart..

Listening to sad ballads..V often carried away by the lyrics or the melody..
We might even shed tears..

But wats wen U realised de one dat U are crying for is listening to the same song..

and is upset too..but its not U dats clinging in their mind..
Ur heart bleeds but there is noting U can do..

I finally understand d feelings of my fren,ex- current beau.. (Refer post:Unfaithful Lover)

http://reallyniasing.blogspot.com/2009/03/liu.html
It must be real hard for him…but there is noting he can do..
Now I trully understood why he still clings on to her...

(Soli ya..for having said dat I wanna slap him gaogao tim ~ means hard hard loo)

(Cox there mux be someone outhere now dat wanna slap me bek gaogao de loh .. T.T)

Wen it's clear dat she doesn’t feel de same way for him..

It simply becox just as much as he can’t force her to love him..
He can’t force himself to stop loving her too..
If only v all can be a little cruel..den end all the misseries..

I wonder how many of us will wish v can bek to be little boyboy n galgal again ya?

I wish I was a little girl again..
Because bruised kneel heals faster
Than broken hearts..
Dun u tink so?

MY LOVE..SORRY

2009-03-24T04:41:00.000-07:00

Jux bek from my supper!! FULL!!!
It will be awhile till I will have time to update tis blog as tomolo I will need to return tis broadband to my fren oooOO..
n till I get bek my connection..hoho..will seldom get to c me online loo..

Plus wit the new hectic timetable!!
Sob sob sob..it will be FULL DAY for 3 DAYS!!! 1 HALF-DAY on morning! n onli "CLASS-LESS" (hoho..guess there is no such word..means NO CLASS) on MONDAY!!
YaYa..for those who still have no clue and kept asking me wat m i working as now..
Im bek to study at Kemayan ATC..d end of Petaling Street..
LOL..No need to find me for lunch loo..Just tapau @ deliver for me will be the best!! Muahahhahaha!!

Ermmm...so happen while waiting for my tren tis noon..I was busy deleting some contacts in my phonelist..
Hohoho..Im used to delete names!!
Lol..there are 5 DANNYs' in my phonelist!!
I dun even know who is who!!
I just want to save DANNY from DC..but I couldnt delete the names yet cox I still cant figure out wich num is Danny from DC..but deleted 2 cox I know he is using 016! ahahahaa!!
I come acrossed a name..YUP..Im bek to Malacca for a One-Day trip on Sunday :-*
Dead tired!! Onli stop by at A-FAMOSA n went to the Safari..n it's just LOLZZzz!!
Katty told me I should jux give him a call den Muahahhaa..will have a free driver!
Den I wun just bek to Malacca..every weekend I can visit further places!!
Penang..I've always wanted to go there to taste the foods!!!
Previously can say I "ter"- means accidentally got him hurt..
NiaSing..how I know a few sms n gifts will got him felt dat Im giving him chances..
LOL..he bought me some gifts...to return the gifts seems like very kiasu..
People give den NiaSing..how old oredi ohh..still wanna push n pull meh..take loh..
Den in return..I bought him bek someting loo..normal de mah..
I din realised sometimes wen Im too nice to someone..they will get the wrong signal..
Wen I rejected him in a very good manner lah...he still got upset..
But if tis time I reali flirt with him den it means I purposely and intenionally hurting him..
And NiaSing..knowing how much it hurts to be hurt..Im tinking of doing the same to another person onli becox I know he is interested in me?
NiaSing! Wat a bitch!! Ahahahaa!!
But surely I wun do so!!
Frens said maybe in time..I will be touched by him..if I give him the chance..
But NiaSing..sometimes it's reali hard to explain..He is quite a pretty boy too n treated me well but I jux dunwan him to get near to me!! Ahahaha!!

Den at nite wen I was out..NiaSing..I saw one of my Ex-
I felt so uneasy seeing him so close wit other gals...NiaSing!!
But it makes me realise..How come it took me almost a decade to finally let go of him...
But it takes just a new person for me to forget d next one in gosh..a snap of fingers!!
Do I reali "LOVE" them or Im just unknowingly treated them as a Mr.Rebound...
I mean..I hardly know them..Im oredi hooked up wit them wen I dun even knw their names in full! Hate to admit but I've oredi fall head over heels over them in just a few meet-ups..
Yup the relationship doesnt last..I was hurt..I cried..but it took just d next person..AWHILE to get me forget bout the previous one..as if it's become a cycle!!
It's dat Im easily drawn to de others as they care for me wen I was broken-hearted?
Or I wanna prove n show to him dat except him..there are still be others dat will be interested in me?
Teng..Ya..U are rite!! I reali dunno wat exactly Im doing..ahahhaa..

Watever it is..
(never wanna dwell bek much into the past!! YUCKS!! ahahaha!!)
I thank d Lord for dis great awakening!!
I will never wanna say or listen to SORRY anymore..
As wen someone uttered d word "SORRY" ..It's oredi too late..

The hurts is oredi there..
Im reali sorry for all the hurts I've got myself n others thru in my so call-LOVE..

SORRY..will never wanna listen it from myself or anyone EVER!!!

zzzZZzzzz

2009-03-22T07:06:00.000-07:00

it's 7:02am now..
woke up an hour ago..
cant reali fall bek to sleep..
headache plus stomach cramps...
but de part dat realli hurts is from d ....
why do I always love to dig holes de leh...

"Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkinku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cinta ku padamu..."

"Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh..
Seakanku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggal kan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud..."

wat is LOVE?

Love is patient,
Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
Love never fails...
- 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

tis is d description dat the Lord use for LOVE..
but why wen it comes to LOVE..d onli ting dat comes to my mind is HURT..
how much can someone sacrifice for LOVE?
or should say how much more hurts it takes for me to finally learn to LET GO..

2009-03-18T01:58:00.000-07:00

在我最后一次，
闭上眼睛之前，
我想对你说..我爱你，
在你怀里，
舍不得放弃，
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力，
不想闭上眼睛，
至此告别就不能再相遇，
不能再陪你..
但不要忘记，
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
IM NOT WRITING IN MANDARIN YO!
BUT NIASING..SURELY I UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THE ABOVE WORDS LOR!
YA..I CANT READ MANDARIN BUT DENG..I'VE GOT FRENS DAT DO MAH!!
N IN TIS WORLD...
THERE ARE TINGS KNOWN AS COPY+PASTE+TRANSLATE!!!

It a lyric for a song…I find it very touching and indeed veli sweet especially the last part wen it says..
“U promised me u will live ur life well”

How nice + luply dat a breakup can end in such harmony scenario..
Wit blessings n wishes n caring for each other..
But not wit tears, curses and hurts..
It's just so sad to see two souls dat used to mean so much to each other..
The close-ties dat once shared will be covered by hatred..

And before I start to write anything more..
I will wanna say a big big muacks n sori for everyone ya!!
Dat I lost my cool on last friday nite n dat I’ve lied to all of u!!
Wen everyone being puzzled why I cried on Friday nite..Muahahhaha!!!
I replied..the answer is in my blog..read it,u will understand..
Muahahhaha n some reali anxious + caring frens reali did immediately read n called me up n tell me they dun get it oh..
Of cox loh..Muahahhaa..Im just promoting my blog lah..
Im sori dat I got all u all worried and surely m very touching and moved by all ur carings n concerns..
Ermm..just can say dat I had too much dat nite..n lets just end all it there ya..

And will wanna say a big big luply HAPPY SWEET 18 to luply Evon!!
Deng!! Wen Im wit all d puffy eyes den onli she came to snap pics wit me…
LOL…can c my eyes were all swollen in d pic!!

Now let us bek to our topic..
Why do breakup mostly end up with disaster..most commonly loo..
To me..It will turn nasty wen it happens out of a sudden!!
No one will want to caught in some awful surprises..
However after ermmmm..some talks..in good manners lah..
Not those shouting n yelling ones..
Surely one party will felt the hurt n the unwillingness to accept
Lol..Actuali I hate tis saying..
If u love someone,u dun need to have them
Aiks…(waaahhhhhhh…why why why cant I have him?!!!)
Muahahahhaa!!
Wat can I say is,if its urs,Den it is..
If its not urs..Den it shouldn’t started at all..
Cox whether u like it or not..It will be gone..
Yaya..I know some may say..Its easy for me to say so..
Niasing!! Wat easy?! Its hard for me to swallow those lousy words as well k?!!

It's never easy to finally find someone u luv..
Given the chance,hold on to it tightly but if it's fated dat it should be over..
Den at least..END IT GRACEFULLY (CHEWAH!!) den bitterlly loo..
It's neve an option wen it comes to breakup..whether it is in good or bad terms..
Even u dun wanna let go and still hold on tight
The truth is.. he/she oredi walked away…

Love is something reali strange and Aiks…
How many can reali have a fairtytale ending...
Most of us will end up getting hurt..
So..to avoid hurt..YES!! the best option is not to fall in love anymore!!!

Muahahhahaa..LOL..wen I tell my frens I wanna be single for d rest of my life
D reactions..Muahahaahhaha ... "DFF @ die far far lah” !!!!
Cox haahhahaha..trully.. I am such a sucker for love as Im easily moved..
I fall in love so quick..I fall out of it even quicker..hohoho!!!
One minute I am all over you..The next minute I am already over you!

I did found one special person that I am totally in-love with
I still love him.. I’ll always will in-Christ
I can never thank the Lord enough for knowing him..
Though v’ve known each other for a reali short period of time
He changes my views in lotsa things

Feeling the pain of a past relationship is perfectly normal
However clinging to those feelings n bringing them into a new relationship is wat causes the strain..
If the issues are not addressed..they become a cycle..

Wen v first met,v were both left shatterted n broken-hearted..
He neve did left a deep impression on me except Muahahhaa at my first glance..he is a pretty boy oh…Hohoohohoho ~~
Over till later.. thankfully wit his supports n concerns I successfuli pull myself out of a terrible misseries!
Dats wen I pray I can do the same for him..
He is a sweet person.. and I wanted him to be happy as dat is wat he deserved to..

Thus,I am grateful dat he is being honest wit me..
Wen v are in a relationship,make sure v are in it for the right reasons..
If not ..End it..
At least it cut the grieft off my heart den it step too deep..
At least v still laugh+ jokes+steam-boating n d best online together rather den tearing each other heart apart wit hurtful remarks+comments..
So he shouldn’t be sorry for anything
Instead I should thank him for all the sweet memories dat he brings into my life..
And dun slam d door so quick lah..LOL..NiaSing ah..k lah..wun KIONG MAN (force a kiss) u de lah..

Bb jing.. 不要忘记,你曾经答应我你会好好活下去…luv u..Muackkss

Woman-Beater..

2009-03-13T01:11:00.000-07:00

Wen Im writing tis post..It is 5.30am..
I should and was deep deep babi-ing but was awaken by some reali terrifying screams!!!
WWWaaaaahhHHH…AAhhhHHHHahHHHHH….
I first thought it's from the cats..
U know loh..Wen the cats got in a fight..before they fight..they will like us human loh.."gong so or liu liu(deal-deal)” or “fathau-ing-(flirting)”..
Deng..the noises…
Listen n Listen n Listen …Confirmed!!! It's a woman cries!!!!
It's few blocks from my house..

Looked out from the window,I can see my other neighbours are too looking for the source of the anguish cries…
And if I will get to know wich house it is..I will immediately call POLICE!!!
Tis is not the time to mind our own business..
Tis is the time to show BUSINESS!!!

Woman-Beater…
Fark…
Wen I heard of news of Rihanna dropped her charges on Chris Brown..
Like the rest of the world..I find dat she is a really NiaSing..muahahhaaha…
And I pray dat one day God will strengthen her and and grant her wisdom to walk away from dat farking jerk and hand him over to the authorities..
He is sori for wat he done?
Great! Den go to jail and pay for it!!!!
LIU NIASING!!

I wonder how many dats around me facing the same hurtful experiences like Rihanna…
No excuses should be accepted
Liu NiaSing…
Can anyone imagine the terror of the person being beaten up by someone dat's supposingly protecting them..
And if u give them a chance..
Guess wat..
Just make sure U know a clinic real well cox there is CONFIRMLY a 100% repeating of such farking NiaSing acts!!!
I din say tis for fun..Surveys reported any family matters dat's involved violence..in 10 cases..Yup! There is a repeat of dat 10 cases!!

I never knew how much difference of a man strength wit a woman
Until my handbag was snatched few years ago..
The gugu was asking for direction and suddenly he just pulled my bag..
Liu Niasing him ah..
It seems like he is not even using any strength..
But I fell down so hard on the ground and my leg was all bleeding..

Just imagine..
How can someone say they luv U wen they can simply lay their farking NiaSing hands on U?!!!
Ya..Gals tend to be soft-hearted and V can easily forgives..
BUT PLEASE DUN DO SO!!!
REPORT TO THE POLICE!!!
AND NO MATTER WAT EXCUSE OR EXPLANATION..
U DUN DESERVE TO SUCH A HIDEOUS NIASING ACTS!!

Run away!!
Dun tink of putting bek a fight .. U cant win ..
But Yup..Get out from the place ASAP!!

He is standing on the way?
Run to some open spaces..Like to de house balcony as most commonly happened in houses..
Ya..dats wat tis farking niasing cowards does..
Tis farking bastards will only dare to show their NiaSing strength in closed–places!!!
Hold on to someting and SCREAM FOR HELP!!!
If u cant make the exit and force to fight bek..
Dun fight dat NiaSing wit bare hands loh..
Throw things at the farking gugu!!
Dats wat v called SELF-DEFENSE!!!

As a Christian...Yes,V are told to fogives as the Lord forgives..
But Jesus also did warned us to stay away from all the negative sources..
The Lord loves Us so terribly muchie.. He died on the cross for Us..
We are very very precious…
How much do U tink it will hurt the Lord to see us being hurt in such a way?
He blesses us a brain ..to think.. to difference the good and the bad..
U know it’s a bad things..
Den walk away..

And tis farking bastards should pay the price for the hurts they caused!!!
Not only physically but mentally..
The nightmares of waking up in the middle of the nite..
The brusises on the skin..d outward appereance will recover but wat's about the heart?
It will be a life-time scars

I have a fren dat's been thru such hellish moments…
She told me she can recall so vividly the times of her got beaten up by her spouse…
9 hellish times!!!

But the only prob here is..she cant even recall the reason why he did it!!
As if it's oredi been a common ting for him!!
But YES!! He will always make sure my fren believed he did it becox he is right and my fren did something terribly wrong!
Dat he is UNWILLINGLY & BEING FORCED to PUNCH,SLAP and PUSHES her all around!!!
And praise the Lord..on the 9th times..She walked away
Guess she had the worse on dat night..
Though it sounds abit late but at least Yes..Praise d Lord again..She left..
Just like Rihanna case..after the news..frens of her coming out and make statements dat is not the first time she was seen wit brusies and marks on her…

Have U ever wish U can get bek to de past and make a change on something..
Such a space-travel stuffs…muahahahaaa..like d Doraemon ting..
My fren once told me ..
If given such a chance,she will make sure he is trully sori..not only thru words..for wat he has done..
Muahahahaaa…
She regretted so much dat she din report it to the police
And let him repeat it so many times!
It might be happening to another innocent gal now..
Wen I heard dat…I felt terribly bad and sori too for not doing wat I should wen I knew bout the news..
Yes..Staying by their side and support and encouragement are very important
But the one ting wich is the most important is to knock some senses on them and get help!!

Help them out..Walk away from those bastards!!!
Rihanna Dad..Damn dat gugu…supports Rihanna decisions on getting bek wit Chris Brown!!!
Liu Niasing..apa punya bapak?? (was kind of father is tis??!!!)

I wish dat bastard..I cant use gugu to describe him cox he dun even deserves dat title!!
He is to me a farking NiaSing coward witout gugu!!
I really hope he will read tis…or frens or family members of his..
Tell him to STAY FAR AWAY FROM MY FREN!
Yes..She tot dat She can forgets it as time goes by and forgives him…
She is those idiotic type dat forgives easily…Muuahahhahaha!!!
But guess wat..SHE CANT AND I WILL NOT LET HER!!!
She wishes him dead everytime she goes to a cinema for a movie..
Any fighting scenes will make her wanna run out from d room as soon as she possibly can..
U are sorry for wat U did?
Great!!! Den U go and die fast and far!!
Wen I say go to die..I really mean it!!
D.I.E…DIE..GO AND DIE !!
U dun need to do so infront of us .. we will eventually get the news..Muahahahaha!!
Dat's d onli way for U to repay wat U’ve done and prove to her for the final time dat U are trully sori!!!
If u cant do so..den please FARK OFF FAR AWAY from her life!!!
Save the farking sori for Urself!!!

Just the tots of bumping him on the street!!!
GOSH!!!!!!!!!!
Wish he will be knocked down by a car right infront of me!!!!
I am being cruel and unforgiving?!!
Tell me onli after U’ve been in my fren shoes...

Unfaithful Lovers

2009-03-12T01:26:00.000-07:00

Liu….

Deng…
Soli ya…it's not dat I puposely wanna start my writing wit all tis %$@!#!!
But it's my eye eye..ermm..the right side one..hurts like..AMMMAAAAHHH!!
Cry Cry mah? Dat's why de eye hurt hurt? SOLI!!!
NO!! IT IS NOT!!
Hoho.. cox jux now I rub some oilment on my tummy loo..and being the ever clumsy me..

I removed my lenses witout washing my hand…hohoho..
The oilment is veli de MUJARAB (its a malay word ya..cant recall wat it calls in english oh..search it in dictionary on ur own lah ya...) as U can reali c de instant result!!
Cox I have constipation..hoho..de oilment reali works veli well on me!
Now u c c my tummy big big..
ZEEEEeeeNNgggg…
Tomolo..flat flat oredi..muahahhaha
Dats my secret of DARE TO EAT!!!
Ermmm..but piece of advise is..hoohooo..rub it on wen u r at home ..better alone loo
Cox it will make de gas gas out of ur body oh..meaning farting loh..FONG PEI!!!

Lately I met lotsa new frens n surely will muahahhaha promote my blog loh…Muahahhaa!!!
And thanks ya for everyone dat spend their time to read my writing..hohoho..

Erm..how do I wanna start tis time ya..
Unfaithful lovers…
How will u deal wit it?

I have a fren who is still veli muchie in touch wit his Ex-
Den on one Liu Niasing nite..I TER-....

TER..means accidentally lah..not purposely..
I TER-found out bout their still-on-off-on-off..push-push-pull-pull-relationship…

Deng..like Ms.Loh Li Chin case loh..
Funny part is the gal kept saying dat the one dat she is so absofarkinglutely in lup wit is my fren and not her current beau…
The one dat she is dreaming n wishing n praying to be wit is my fren n not her bf..
But she stills wit the guy.. -________________________-"

Funny leh..u all oso like me loh..clueless..
Bui?!!! Like dat den why still wanna be wit dat guy leh?
Why dun breakup leh?

Sob Sob..

Cox..

Sob Sob..

He is veli nice to me loh..
I dunno how to tell him off..in a good way cox I dunwan him to get hurt...

FARK!!! COMPLETE NONSENCE!!!
It's either her current bf is truli a retarded idiot or else I just dunno how to describe his feelings…
At first..I felt sori for both my fren n his Ex-..
I wonder why they stay apart wen they both wanted to be wit each other badly?

Den I come to realise ..the real victim here is not my fren n his Ex...
It’s the gal current beau..
Gosh…I not onli feel terribly sori for him but pity him…
He fell in lup wit such a wrong person…
And d gal..Liu!!!! Make it as she is being victimised!!!
Wen she sms my fren n still calling my fren “HUBBY” “LO GONG” n all the farking "MISS U" "LOVE U " OUR PROMISES" " U REMEMBER MAH? ..TIS AH..DAT AH"..…

LIU!!!
Did she ever tink of her bf feelings?
And it's dat not hurting him?
She is betraying his trust on her!
The one dat should be crying n feel sad certainly not HER but HIM!!!

Sob Sob Sob..

Im so pressured..

I dunno wat to do..
I oredi told him..
My heart..

My mind..

My soul..

My everything onli got U..

No him..
But still he dunwan to let go of me oh ..

Wat to do …

Sob Sob Sob Sob....

Liu..
Did she reali tell her bf dat or she is faking it n telling others she did?
If she reali did said those stuffs to her bf n dat gugu still wanna hold on to her..

Den..
Like I said loh..it's either dat gugu is reali a complete idiot,If not gosh..I just cant tink of a possible reason for him to still coupling wit her..
I mean..Liu..U are being wit someone dat tell U face to face..

"Eii....

U know wat??!!

I dun love U at all..

D one n onli person I ever luv n wanted to be is my Ex-..

He is my everyting..n I wanna marry him..

Marrying him is my dream”

Lucky dat I dun knw dat gugu or else I will reali slap dat gugu gao gao (means hard hard)!!!

Muahahahaaa....

Aikss…Maybe dat's de trend now..Cox they are all still darn young..in their early 20s...
But can age be an excuse to act n behave immature and to hurt others??!!

Yes..Im a real fool in love as well..
No one can reali comes up wit the real meaning of wat is love…
But tis is certainly not rite!!!

If onli I can meet her in person..I will wanna tell her..
Please stop de farking acts and stop saying
She loves someone wen at the same time she is hurting someone so badly…
Love isn't like dis..
If she reali dun like d guy,she can just leave..
Why still clings on to him?
Dunwan to break his heart??..He dunwan to let go??..
FARK!!! PIG-SHIT!!!

It takes 2 person to say YES to begin a relationship..
But wen it comes to breakup..It onli take one person to say OVER..
So..Stop all those farking lame excuses n yaya....She will say she is hurt but it's her dat hurting herself and got all tis so complicated!!!
Wat bout her bf??

She is hurting him more den she can ever imagine…

And is tis how she always say..I DUNWAN TO HURT HIM…

YAYAYA.. guess i got her point…

FARK-OFF FAR!!!!

Emmanuel ^^!

2009-02-21T12:11:00.001-08:00

Happy moments, praise God.

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God

MS.LOH LI CHIN – THE NEW CHAPTER! ^0^!!

2008-10-17T18:00:00.000-07:00

I am now siting in the middle of my really,trully,massively,undescrible MESSY living room!!
Buddies dat's been into my pig barn will understand wat I mean..ahahhhaa..^^!
Liu Nia Sing ah..I oredi warned u all mah..
Den it is u all dat said, “Aiya! Noting de lah! Our room is oso messy mah! Come lah,We frens mah! Noting de lah! Let us in ler!”
Wen u finally in, U will say tis..wich most -99% of my buddies commented it
“Mak ooiiiii!!! Is tis a house?” Muahhahahaa!!!
Wei..it's much better now!!! I did throw away lotsa stuffs!
And Hallelujah!!! FINALLY I mopped the floor..ermmm..I guess the last time I do so is months ago!!

I have live here for almost 4 years..woow!!! Time do flies!!!
I’ll be movin to a new place, a new enviroment latest by tis month….which I am reluctantly doing so ..
I will wanna keep staying here..but aikss..just see wat happens ya..
I stil recall the moment wen I browsed thru the newspaper for a house to rent!
Surely the rental and the location is wat attracted me the most!
Only RM450 for a house wit 3 bedrooms ..It's a shoplot house..4th floor!
To me of cox I would love to stay in a better enviroment with pool and gims but at dat moment dats all I can afford to pay
The moment I step into tis house..I fell in love wit it..It's just best fitted me..
The mall-The Store is just right next to my house..Few steps of walk..Im oredi there!
I reali love it here so much!!!

Haciuuu..hhhhaaaa..ciuuu..sneeze sneeze..
Who is missing me ya?
Chinese belief..2 times sneezing means people missing u..
Liu Nia Sing ah..oredi told u all not to miss me dat much mah..U see!! Got me sneez jor!!! Nia Sing ah!!
Muaaahhahaaa!!
Or the fact dat Im now alll naked? Ahahahhahaha!!
Running around the house naked is the best ting U get living alone!
Yup! U oso dun need to worry dat U’ll scare ur house-mate to death the moment u walk out from ur room early in the morning!!
Or u’ll need to put on some proper clothes before U are out frm the room!
But ofcox I dun go naked dat much ..dangerous oh..U knw lah..chubby jor…I worry I’ll scare myself to death wen I walk pass my mirror!! Ahahhahaha!!!!

Its been reali quite a long long time since my last entry!!
Tis time is different,not dat I dun have an idea instead I have too many ideas but so little time to write them out..
Out most of the time and worse is wen im finally home..I CANT SLEEP!!
And here I am stil deciding do I wanna continue wit my buddy,Ms.Loh Li Chin a.k.a. Ms.Digged The Damn Grave Hole Herself stories or other frens or bek to myself ler..stil deciding now..

Before I start writing tis post and even get online tis morning..I pray!!!
Muahhahhaa..Yup! No need to rub ur eyes!! U read it correctly..I PRAY!!
Prayers are great..it's the only way to communicate wit my Abba Father,the One and Only person dat loves me unconditionally!!
And I am thankful dat I have JESUS in my life!!!
Actually,I came across a ting I wanted to share it wit two of my very best frens-Yee teng and Sherry
But after the prayer,Muahahaaha…I know the news is best kept with the Lord,knowing and believing that HE is in control..dats all I can and wanna say!!!
May,another sweet fren of mine asked me a question last week-"Why are we-gals, so soft-hearted?"
I replied,because God made us to be dat way and we should be proud dat we are soft-hearted!! Cox it shows dat we are not a mean and/or a cruel person! There are lotsa tings we dun have answers for it but all we need to do is have faith dat God is in control!!!
Muahhaha!!! She was shocked wen she heard dat kind of response from me!!
Liu Nia Sing ah..wat?!! Cant believe those words are from me?!! ahhhaaahhahaa!!!
All tis I give praise to HIM! Wow!!!! Can u see?!! Tis is the wonders of prayers!!
U’ll feel so peaceful and love is in the air!!

Yup! Another important ting I wanna high-light here is a few frens dat come across to my blog complaint dat my blog got LOTSA WORDS!
Ah Chais and Ah Mois..Sorry ah to say tis but.. LIU NIA SING ah!! TIS IS A BLOG LOR!
As if they neve read a blog before!! Lotsa words..DUH??!!
There are blogs dats wit lotsa pictures in it but deng!! If I wanna post my pics,I’ll do so in facebook and frenster lor! muahahhaha!!
But since there are a few complaints received,gotto say thanks oso lah cox take the time to read my blog..so touching oh..u'll see some differences in tis post rite? at least got a picture loo.. dats how i look like now!

Okie ler..Update a bit bout Ms.Loh ler..dats wen I decided the title of tis post to be
MS.LOH LI CHIN – THE NEW CHAPTER! ^0^!!
Actually Ah Loh gotto give credits to Katty,our very beloved-bestie buddy in tis matter dat she finally now..muahhahha..open up herself to other gugus!
But of cox not all shared her new-found-hopefully-to-be-happiness!!!
Dun understand? Lol..dat means,she and the new cutie is stil frens now but of cox she hopes muahahahhaa....dat they wun just be frens! Good!
First time to have such a rush after Liu Nia Sing almost half a decade!!!
He is a real sweet and shy guy,so dunno ler..might be dat cutie oredi married wit kids …ahahhahaha..who knows rite?!!
One fine evening, Ah Loh called a long-not much contact fren of ours..dat kept complaining dat we din call him!As I expected..tis fren of ours..only one word to describe “DENG!!”
The pattern of his questions and answers are all the same regardless of who is the caller!

Loh : alooo..how are you now?
Fren: forget me lah..now onli u got time to ring me up!
(Excuse me! He is a married man wit a new born baby gal! Wat do he expect us to do?! Ring him up 24/7?
Or call him out in the middle of the nite to yumcha wit us or clubbing wit us in the weekends? Gooosssshhh!!!
I mean,if Im newly married and wit kids..I will undoubtly spend more of my time wit my family..surely will out wit frens but I wun blame them for not including me in their singlehood nites!!)
Loh : no lah..busy mah..
Fren:so how? Pak toh le mah?!! (Liu!! As if there is no other topic to talk about!)
Loh : not yet lah
Fren : how old oredi ah..stil dun wanna pak toh meh? (U see!! Again!! Liu Nia Sing!! As if dats his problem for anyone to stay single!!)
Loh : no lah..I do have someone in my mind now..(Yup!! Tis refers to the cutie panda!!!)
But dunno yet lah..stil a long way to come to any conclusion!
Fren: is he rich (Duh?!!..U see!!! Start jor!!)
Loh : okie okie gua..
(Deng!!! He is rich or not? Is dat a problem?? I dun make frens by having to have a look at their bank statement! If dats the case,den die lor!! Everyone will run after they look into my bank statement!!! But of cox I do make a vow dat I’ll neve spend a penny on any gugus ever!!! Muaahhhaaa..I mean as frens,yes-I dun mind paying,I felt awkward not doing so…I mean A-A lah..but in a relationship..SORRY..lesson learnt!!! But even wit frens-guys, I am being extra carefull too..thanks to a retarded jerk dat I once trully sincerely regard him as fren but now oredi banned from my life and yes tis jerk name starts wit a D! Dumbass!! Muahahhaha..lol…best fitted him wor!!!)

Okie bek to d conversation ya..

Fren:den wat car he drives ah?
Loh : Toyota vios ..(Act, Ah Loh not sure but I mean..I could've 100% guess wats his answer to be!!)
Fren : Huh?!! Vios? So cheap? How old is he ah?
(Liu Nia Sing ah..Vios and he said its cheap? So cheap,den go and buy one for me lah! )
Loh: 26..if im not mistaken
Fren: huh? 26 and onli ride a vios ah..u see me! Im oso 26 and I have a alphard and bla bla bla…
(Tis fren of ours...honestly,everytime chatting wit him reli heated me up damn geng one! Thankfully,the Lord is here and I will view him in a positive manner..i mean as a fren,he will surely hope dat I can find someone dats reali good..Im thankful for his kind intention but did it ever occur to him dat he comes frm a quite well done family! I mean, if my dad will loves me just like his dad did to him,I’ll be driving a BMW 3 series here and there! I dun need to work and studied part time! But deng,will all these richies kiddos ever understand the fact of life..just save my saliva..no air to talk to him)

The rest of the conversation,I dun need to elaborate long..Dats the reason why I hardly picking up his calls and will only ring him up wen im in a TOTALLY REAL GOOD MOOD!! I mean..deng,I am thankful for his concern and of him being so caring but the way he shows it its just like I said just now “DENG”!!

Ms.Loh Li Chin-FINALE (WHY & WHO ARE U TO BE UPSET?)

2008-09-27T21:07:00.000-07:00

After much speculation..No No..No…Not the R.P.K detention under the ISA..dats last week story jor lor..
Oh!!! Teresa will be charged for humilating the eggs? HUH? really ah? but No No No…Not dat..Not dat..
Ermm..Anwar again ah? No No No....
It’s the on-again-off-again-on-again-off-on-on-off-on-ooff-on …LOL..trip of Ms.Loh Li Chin a.k.a. Ms.Digged The Damn Grave Hole Herself!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA
I know by now..everyone will wanna say tis out aloud..
LIU NIA SING! I TOT WAT!!
Finally!!! My fren Ms.Loh Li Chin a.k.a. Ms.Digged The Damn Grave Hole Herself made a decision!!
No one even Ah Loh tinks she had such a courage to do so! Ah Loh..darn proud wit u!
Ah Loh called the trip OFF!!!
Last few nites,v purposely out drinking with Ah Loh..
Our MISSION is ONE! To get Ah Loh drunk!
Wenever Ah Loh drinks..Ah Loh prince will receive some unwanted sms frm her! Muahahhaa..Dats our point!
But LIU NIA SING her ah..she did typed the sms but sent it to us!!
LIU..now..wenever I go to bed..I MUST set my phone to SILENT MODE!

But WOW! Surprisingly,on Wednesday nite,Ah Loh stayed at home and wit a clear mind,Ah Loh sent a message to her prince and called the trip off!! Great!!! Hallelujah!!!
LIU! If v knw dats the case,v wun be out drinking wit her for several nites loo..LIU NIA SING ah,u tink the drinks are cheap ah?! All the shops & shops to boost the moods oredi half drying me up..meaning almost pokai lor!
But really mou? She did dat? She is willing meh..She can meh..
Yes Ah Loh did it and I know it wasn’t easy for her too..
But like a part in the drama Kah Hoe Yuet Yuen a.k.a. Home Good Moon Round..
HUH? WATS DAT?
LIU! Dats the latest Hong Kong TVB drama loh!! Where have u been? Jux got bek frm Mars?
Moses Chan a.k.a. Ah Kah said to Kate Tsui Zi San a.k.a. Kah Mei (honestly i dun like tis gal! dun u tink she looks like someone wit a failed surgery?!! muahahhaha!! Yo,Im bad!) while they are breaking up..
Will I be upset after breaking up wit u..Yes,I will
Will it be a difficult decision for me to make..Yes,it is
But wat needs to be done need to be done...
Ah Loh cant rubbed off the remarks she heard frm others bout her prince
Yes..if one person came along n said something..Ah Loh can stil find 1000 EXCUSES to bek his prince up!
PLeaseeeE!! Can someone please present her a medal??!
THE WINNER OF DIGGING OWN GRAVE HOLE!!!
But wen a few comes telling the same ting..FARK! WAKE THE FARKING UP!
Den the next day,I received a call frm beloved Ms.Loh telling me she nearly send and call to tell her prince dat she wanted to go on wit the trip
LIU NIA SING..
Okie let me be the sexy devil now..add oil to the fire!!
AH LOH REMEMBER!
He held ur hands in the noon and other gal hands in the nite! LIU!
U tink his sms sounds touching?! LIU NIA SING U AH!
If he can hold other gal hands hours after helding urs..Wat? U tink those sweet lovely touchy sms onli sent to u alone? FARK!

I’ve talked to a fren of mine recently bout relationship issue whom used to be a player..
I wonder why some people..it's oredi obvious dat they dun love dat certain person..
Why stil kept holding them on..
Den tis fren of mine said..for the players..they want not onli the body but oso their preys heart!
SIMPLE!
If at anytime they called..if they onli have ur body..
Ur answer can be 50-50
ARE U FREE TONITE?
THE ANSWER CAN GO-YES,MAYBE,NO,CONFIRM WIT U LATER n bla bla bla....
But if they own ur heart ..wenever they ring u up
ARE U FREE TONITE?
THE IMMEDIATE ANSWER IS YES! YES! YES YEEEEEEEEsssSSSSSS!!!!
Scary ya..

Pastor once said in his sermon..Tings dat doesn’t belongs to us..the Lord will send His angels to let us know..
Everyting happens for a reason..
Ah Loh,its not a coincidence for U to get to know those unwanted news bout dat gugu..
The Lord wants U to knw it.. but its Ur call if U wanna keep hurting urself
But do u knw when u are crying and hurting for someone dat kicks u like a ball
Jesus is hurting 3 times more den u seeing u in such a miserable situation...
U have been thru a lot ..HE dun save u so dat u can keep hurting urself..

Den on Thursday nite..v forced Ah Loh out to chill wit us!
V dunwan Ah Loh to be at home alone and goosshh..v reali had such a HARD nite!
I dunno bout others but confirmly me n Katty was so so drunk!
On our way home..Katty told me she saw stars spinning around her!!
And as for me, I can stil feel the world spinning on me the next day!!
Wen Ah Loh got bek home dat nite,she called her sister..
Ah Loh told her sister bout the ever-complicated luv life of her
I really felt dat Ah Loh should’ve called her sister up earlier and not waste our saliva
Cox wat Ah Loh Sis said is so true and surely it kills her oredi dying heart!!! GOOD JOB!!

Wen Ah Loh told her sister dat her prince kicked her like a ball
Ah Loh Sis answered..
“DEN WAT U EXPECT HIM TO SAY?”
“YA,SHE IS MY EX BUT I LOVE HER,DUN GET NEAR HER!”
“IF HE HAS A GF NOW,HE HELD HANDS,HUGS AND EVEN FARK WITH OTHERS..WHY AND WHO ARE U TO BE UPSET?”
“OFFICIALLY..U & HIM BROKEUP AGES AGO!”
“AS IF U ARE NOW GETTING UPSET WITH NEWS DAT DOESN’T PLEASE UR EARS!”
“DEN WAT U WANNA HEAR?”
"DAT HE IS SO MUCH IN LOVE WITH U..HE IS NOW SAVING $$$ TO MARRY U..U ARE HIS ONLY TRUE LOVE?”
So true! Points taken!

After I listened to Ah Loh’s conversation with her sister…
I felt reali sorry for her...It sounds like she is a nuisance desperately crawling and holding on to her prince leg..
I can only say..let go my dear and let the Lord takes charge…
Yes..its so true,in the eyes of others..U n him isn't an item ages ago..
So please act and be like one! LIU NIA SING!!! How hard can dat be?
U arent walking alone..HE is walking wit u..
And U've got a bunch of Us dat'll shop wit u till nearly pokai!!
And drinks wit U till really pokai on the floor!!!
Deng!! Get some hunky to carry me up to my house!! hahahaaa ^^!!

GREAT WEEKEND ^^!!!

2008-09-22T15:30:00.000-07:00

Tis weekend been an estactic one!!
I spent it chilling at home..watching dvds and oso out wit my gal frens wich is absofabuliciously great!!!!
I met wit Jasmine on Saturday nite..v went to steamboat..goosshh..steamboat again??
Some may reacted like dis..LIU NIA SING!!
Wats d prob of me eating steamboat all the time?
Everytime wen someone hear me having steamboat..they will say
HUH..STEAMBOAT AGAIN AR?!!
LIU NIA SING!!
Did I ask u to pay? No rite? Den wats ur prob? Plus Im the one eating..Im the one gaining the pounds..
Its not like ur tummy gonna be rounder seeing me eat! Liu!
Congrats to my dearly Jasmine!! She is sailing tremendously smooth both in her work n lup life!!
Her boy-dat gugu is now calling her 24/7 !!! and will be moving frm JB to KL..to be closer to her!!!
After all the sleepless teary nites..finally dat gugu realised Jasmine is the ONE!!
Great to hear dat!! Kiong he kiong he!!
Yup..v dun need to rush into a relationship..WATS UR WILL BE URS!
Tis actually reminded me of one ting I reali hate to hear..
"Lol..stil single ah?? U are not young anymore lor..Dun choose here n there lah..faster grab one lah!"
LIU NIASING!!
Faster grab one lah..Im talking bout a soul-mate dat will walk wit me in my days to come..Jux grab one?!!
Im not young anymore..Dats the reason why I cant jux grab anyone and waste a few more years of my time!
And If I dun get married..do I need u to pay for my welfare in my old days time..no rite? Den? Why rush me into getting married? U got commission meh?
No rite? Liu Nia Sing!!!

Den the next day..I tea tea wit another sweet gal dats now in my angel listing too-Cloudy!!!!
Should apologized to her as well as there is a misunderstanding between us before..
Just great to find dat she is a real sweet gal!! Muaackkksss!!
Den I went to Steven Corner wit Katty!
She is such a funny babe!! Im so so so grateful for her!! Wit her..I can be as real as I am!!!!!!!
All the %&*$#@!F&%#!!!! Muahahaha!!! V talk bout anyting at any lengths!!!
I promised her I wun ffk her last week and turns out..I ffk her the whole week!! Muahahhaha!!
Sori lol dear,tis week! CONFIRM! NO FFK!!!
LUV U ..eeeemmmMMMUUUUACCKKSSS!
She is a real darling jux like Sherry jux dat she is definately crazier den Sherry!
Muahahhaa..dat nite I went out to Beach Club wit David..my BUBU..
He said im turning to a wild wild Yen loo..
Honestly I am a wild person and can be real wild wen I wanted to or can say I can be unbeliaveable wild wit ppl dat makes me comfortable of being wild!! Muahahhaa!
Cant get my point? LOL...as dats my prob! Ur antenna so short lah..
David..gooshh..he is a superb great guy!
If I wanted a boy..I will wan someone like him!
He gives me the impression dat even v sleep on the same bed..He'll jux continue to sleep!! Or maybe he dun find me attractive..muahahhaha!!!
I met a few gugus dat at first gave me a quite good impressions..
Den suddenli act like a beast..cant wait to baham me!! GOOSSSHH!!
There was a nite weeks ago..I followed Katty to disco! D.I.S.C.O.!!
Wen I entered the premise..my first reaction..
I turned to Katty and said “Ermm..sui po..ur jacket..can u let me to wear it?”
Muahahhaha..so darn scary!!! The place and d people there!!!
One word…LOL!!!

And YA..for Ms.Loh case..v finally made up our votes..
Me,Jasmine,Katty and Tammy,v had cast our votes!!!!
The conclusion..
Just go ahead wit the trip..treat it as a holiday and get bek and start a brand new life!!
Cox after much discussions..
Dat gugu of Ah Loh said he trusted watever his HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟 said cox its his HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟 mah!
Den Ah Loh oso MUX believe watever dat HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟 of her prince said lor!
Cox its his HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟 mah!!
It means dat gugu mux knw Ah Loh prince absofarkinglutely well lor!!
Dat gugu said AH LOH PRINCE HELD HANDS WITH EVERY GALS!
So..Loh Loh..even wen u two holding hands,u dun need to be so happy ya..cox HE HELD HANDS WITH EVERY GALS!!!
HE HUGS WIT EVERY GALS! AND HE SPEND ALL HIS FARKING $$$ ON CLUBBING AND PETROL COX HE NEEDS TO FARKING DRIVE the chics HERE AND THERE!!! !
And THE most hurting part.. HE NEVER ADMITTED TO ANY OF THEM DAT AH LOH IS HIS GAL AFTER THEY BROKE UP YEARS AGO !
To them..Ah Loh is his EX frm the very beginning!! NEVER HE ADMITTED DAT THEY GET BEK AGAIN!!

ISN'T DAT HURTS??? LOL!! IT SURELY DOES!!!!!
WAKE THE FARKING UP ,WILL U LOH LOH?!!!
Wen v had steamboat..Jasmine n me talked bout Ah Loh
Funnily Jasmine suggested dat Ah Loh to go check check the 3 lifes book!!
SHE ACTUALLY BUYS MY IDEA DAT AH LOH OWED DAT GUGU IN HER PREVIOUS LIFE AND TIS LIFE IS THE PAYBEKK TIME! LIU!!!!!!!
Actually..v oso dun understand..Ah Loh is quite famously known as a BB..
Bah Bai Jing..Actually she hardly get close to someone..especially the opposite sex..She will rather bored to death at home den goin out wit ppl she isnt familiar wit..
But deng..wit tis gugu..gooossshhh….
She can be reali sweet wit those dat she reali treats as frens ..those whom know her will know loo..but other gugus..better stay away frm her..before she looses her cool!! Muahahhahaha!!!
Wow!!! Suddenli I will wanna change my vote and ask her not to go!!!

But one ting dats reali great is Ah Loh said she 100% realised tis time is reali time for her to move on!
Good!!! But how many zillion times v heard dat ya? LIU!
She jux cant take anymore "good" news bout her prince..
She will listen to us..go n treat tis as a holiday..go eat eat n bek to start a new life witout dat GUGU!
AFTER TIS..WILL WANNA KEEP LOH LOH AWAY FRM TIS GUGU
AND ANY OF TIS GUGU FRENS
COX YUP..WAN HER TO HAVE A BRAND NEW START WITOUT DAT GUGU
How sad ya..to realise dat v mean noting to someone dat v cheerish n lup so much..
Dat to them v are noting..worse in Ah Loh case..kena kick like a ball loh..
U LIKE AH,U TAKE LAH!!
LIU NIASING!!!!!
Liu…if to them v are noting..den jux fark the way off their life!!
Once a fren of mine told me..He saw his ex and she pretended dat she din c him..
Wen he go up to her to say a hi..his ex showed him cold shoulder as if they dunno each other!!
Goosshhh..my reply to him..
Who the fark do she tinks she is?
She acted she din c u and even dun knw u..den just fark off!!
As if we are so desperately want to be wit them!!
LIU!! V are not cheap k?!! V are purchased by HIS blood!!
V are freakingly PRECIOUS in HIS eyes!!! Hallelujah!!
Goossshhh..so thankful dat I got to know JESUS!!!

Haha..as if now I am planting hatred into Ah Loh’s mind!!
People always said v can onli reali let go wen we totally cool wit dat particular person
But since now Loh Loh cant reali do so..Yes! Let the fire be there and surely it helps to melt away the feelings she has for her prince!!
So dat she will stay away frm her prince till one fine day ..wen they meet..coolly as a fren!
Deng!! Last time they lost contact for almost 3 years..din expect after 3 years..all she ended up wit dis prince of her is more n more hurts
All I can say is Loh Loh..LET GO & LET GOD!

MS.LOH LI CHIN!!!! part 2!!

2008-09-18T16:45:00.000-07:00

Update story bout my beloved fren, Ms.Loh Li Chin a.k.a. Ms.Digged The Damn Grave Hole Herself..
Hoho..Didnt expect Ms.Loh story got lotsa readers ooohh!!

On one lovely evening...muahahhaa! Ms.Loh met wit her prince and dat gugu told Ah Loh dat he heard frm a fren of his dat Ah Loh commented him a lot behind his bek!
Ah Loh was surprised..Yes, Ah Loh cant deny and admited dat she did said things about her prince but wat realli pisses Ah Loh off is the gugu fren of her prince..Liu Niasing him!!!
Dat gugu!!! he is the one dat started the whole tikam conversations!!!
And now the blame is only on Ah Loh and he be the good guy character!
HIONG DI -Buddy- 兄弟!!!! Liu NiaSing!!!!
Ah Loh wanted to speak bek for herself..but at last she didn’t..
Since her prince said dat gugu is his “ HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟!!!!" ..den just be it!!!!
Plus Ah Loh felt its pointless to say out tings she heard bout her prince frm dat gugu as Ah Loh dunwan to be like dat gugu,she is someone wit her words!!!
Agreed!!! Just like I said to Sis.Jon before..if we do the same tings like those sickos..we are turning ourselves to be like them!!
When Ah Loh said they ended there..it means the conversation ended there!
Ah Loh promised dat gugu it’s between him and her..Den it will stay dat way!!!
I wonder wat Ah Loh's prince reactions will be wen he heard the tings dat Ah Loh heard bout him from tis so call HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟of him!!!
Aikss..its Ah Loh's fault oso!! Ah loh forgotten..YA!!!..
Dat gugu is her prince HO HIONG DI -BEST BUDDY- 好兄弟..means same gang lor!!
And to them...PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN!!!
LESSON LEARNT..AGAIN!!!
If dat gugu admitted dat he too tikam Ah Loh prince den its okie..but he didn’t..dats reali pisses not onli Ah Loh but me as well and I guess everyone dats reading tis post!!!
Damn faker!! And tis is the type of person dat gugu said is his HO HIONG DI!!!

Gooosshhh..Lord!! Please help open his eyes!!!!!
Act..I tink I need the Lord to open Ah Loh’s eyes even more..muahhaahaha!!
But okie lor…since the first intention of Ah Loh get to know dat gugu oso is to knw more bout her prince
And she certainly got more den she asked for!!
Lotsa unwanted detailed news dat got her sleepless n teary nites
Worse now the blame is only on her …Damn dat gugu!!!

Now we realised..(actually i knew dat gugu as well).. why dat gugu kept saying ppl drawn themselves frm him!
My advise just one! He shouldn’t blame or look anywhere anymore.. just go n get himself a mirror!!!
LIU NIA SING!!!
IT'S YOUR JERKY RETARDED ATTITUDE DAT DRAWS PEOPLE AWAY FROM U!! FCUK!!!

After all these messy messy stab stab..Ah Loh now is wondering should she goes on wit the trip..
Im oso clueless..I mean..Is it worth the hurt..Lol...I knw I once said just go n die n rest in peace
But tis time..will there be peace after the trip??
Can she really let go after the trip like she said..I am just afraid dat she's digging the hole deeper n deeper
Aiksss....
Ms.Loh just deleted and made up her mind to cut off anyone dats frm her prince group
Or should she jux cut her prince out of her life...Den end all misseries....AGREE??!!

MS.LOH LI CHIN!!!!

2008-09-10T14:30:00.000-07:00

It has been quite a few weeks since my last entry!
Cause noting actually caught my attention..
And do I need to point out oso to the weather lately..cooling!!!
The bestest ting to do..SLLLLEEEEEEEEPPP!!!!!
“Bestest” Huh?! Spelling error? Hell I care!!!
I am living in BOLEHLAND!! Everyting BOLEH!! MALAYSIA BOLEH! YAKIN BOLEH!!!Yes!! Just love my BOLEHLAND!! Spelling and grammar error..VOLEH!!!
Opppssss..It's BOLEH!!!!

Tis post is dedicated to another lovely fren of mine
Since she repeatedly reminded me ..errmmmss or warned me never ever use her real name
And dun even dare to use name dat sounds like her too..in some quite threathening way..
One of her sweet reminder ....“I know where u live lor” -__-"
Such as in my previous post..actually Sharmaine is my best bud Sherry..
Both starts with the S mah and both oso Superliciuosly Sweet n Hot!!!
Okie..tink tink..i come up wit tis name dat best describe her!
Aha!!! Lets just call her MS.LOH!!
The surname is Loh..middle name Li and ended wit a Chin!!
So now,here I present Ms.Loh Li Chin a.k.a Ms.Digged The Damn Grave Hole Herself !!!

So happen one nite our Ms.Loh joyfully went out yumcha wit a few of her frens who happened oso to know her Ex- or should say oso frens of her Ex lah..
To her horror..even JuOnn ..(the so-call scariest japan ghost story) cannot come close!
Her fren told her dat her Ex- told him about her…
“O ya! Her ah! My ex mah! U like ah,U take lah!!”
Niasing!!!!
Yes..i mux oso admit dat tis lovely fren of mine, Ms.Loh is quite plump loo..
But not round till like a ball mah..Liu Niasing!!! Why kick her here and there like a ball wor!!!
Niamah!!!
Ooppsss..shouldnt use -amah cox tis site is for –asing!!!
To the horror of her frens she cried wen she heard dat..in just a snap of finger
Okie the scenario like below:

Ah Loh fren : he said to me..u like ah,u take lah!
Ah Loh : HUUUUHH?? HE SAID SUCH A THING????????????!!!!

1,2, not even till 3!!!

Tears just strolled down her eyes!!
Deng! Ah Loh,herself was shocked too..
Ah Loh asked herself .."HUH??!! how come I’ll cry?!! I’ve heard tings worse den dis!!!"
Ohh..maybe given the fact that just less den 3 mins ago Ah Loh received a message from tis prince of her lah..calling her darling,reminding her bout their lovely coming get-away trip ..end wit the muaksss and miss+ miss+ love+ love!!!
Den suddendly heard dis kind of news wor..anyone will react dat way lor..
Tis the same guy dat kept telling n assuring her dat he stil luv her darn dearly kicking her like a ball to another gugu!!! NiaSing!!!!
And the surprises continues!!!
TADAHHH!!!!
He oredi attached with someone else! Means he oredi in a relationship NOW!!! Niiiiiaaasing!!!!!
Are the whole universe gugu the same?
They will never ever satisfy with just one hole??!!!
There holding her hands happily at the mall.. the mind oredi wit someone else!!
Liu niasing!!!
Actually she onli wanted to be called a MS.LOH!
But who could’ve guessed dat she oso being nominated for the MS.WU title!!!
WU LI JING!!! Gooooossshhh!!!!!!!!

But if onli lah..all these truth can actually wakes Ah Loh up den she wun be in such a mess!!
Will a slap do? No comment..
The whole nite Ah Loh cant sleep..
The words “U LIKE AH? U TAKE LAH”..keeps popping out in her thoughts!!!! Niamah!!!
Ah Loh tinks real hard wat she did to tis prince of her heart dat she is treated dis way..
Why is he keep coming bek to hurt her..

All I can say..Maybe Ah Loh killed his whole family in her previous life lor!
Or she was a man in her previous life dat loved to fool around..so this life is the paybek time!!
KARMA looo..
I hope my explanation will make her feel better..I learned all these from
"Calculate Life Master a.k.a. Suen Meng Si Fu"!!!
Do I really believe so? Ermm..Honestly as a Christian,I oso wish I can believe in such craps!!
But I know its not..Do I have a answer for this..unsolved jigsaw puzzle? I don’t!
But I guess it’ll surely makes anyone better..

Its like:
Lol..U no need blame urself or u oso cannot blame him de..
Its like dat de mah..karma mah..
U killed his family in the previous life..Now tis life..paybek time lor
But dun wori or sad lah..U will get ur paybek time the next life mah
Dat damn gugu surely be woman the next life den u n him changed role lor!
So its fair de..no worries k? NIAMAH!

Den to make herself feel better lah..Ah Loh tell me dat she dun care wat is in his mind anymore
Even he is now damn!..cannot say he cheats on her! She isn't bek wit him..he is actually cheating on his gal wit Ah Loh!
All that matters to her now is she loves him..she really does
And she really wanna go to the trip wit him
To those of u that feel hot while reading tis..
Niasing..me the one writing even worse!!
All heated up!! or given the fact that my house dun have air-conditioner ler..

So she went out drink drink the next nite
After a few drinks..the mood swings even worse!!
Ahahhaha!!! Wen mood swings mux end up wit teary eyes loor..
Actually I should give Ah Loh a round of applause cox she didn’t ruined the mood dat nite
Ah Loh waited till she is bek home onli she cried..not like the nite before!!
Actually I reli hate those ppl dat cry while out partying
I mean just becox u alone sux..u bring the whole damn group sux wit u! Shit!
People out to have fun not to c u cry and be ur nanny okie?!

Actually her prince damn lucky at dat time
Cox her line was barred or he will surely receive some unwanted threatening or cursed sms!
But I doubt she will ever send those sms dat she should!!
FCUKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

I hope I can find just one reason why tis dearly fren of mine Ms.Loh so smitten to this prince of her
She isn't dat no market mah..At least everytime she is out..there will surely!!! be at least one lah..gugu dat want to know her better!
AHahhahaha!!! I mean ..she is damn against being a Ms.Wu..but now even she knew the status of herself..or she doesnt..she still want to go to the trip wit this beloved prince of her..
Maybe his gugu really powerful..NIAMAH..deng..i love tis word wor..
NIAMAH..hahaha..nope..should use niasing lah..sounds sweeter

I really regret dat most my frens knew I usually sleep very very “early”
Around 5AM!! Hahaahaa!!
Actually now I really sleep very early!!!
So please forgive me wen u called me after 1am and the call went unanswered!
Niasing..u should oso be thankful dat I din answer the call...Or else u will c the obasan in the act!!!

Honestly ..muahaaahaha..i reali lov to say “honestly”..
If Im in Ah Loh situation, I will oso go on with the trip!!
Just go n die n rest in peace!!! Ahahaha!!!
Just like wen Jasmine asked my opinion should she visits her boy at JB as she suspects him cheats on her..
My response..GO!!
Watever happens..HAPPENS!
Go n give the gugu a TADAAAHHH surprise!!!

Okie.. The verdict..Ah Loh..U cant blame anyone but urself..
Yes he keeps coming bek but it's oso because u keep letting him to do so
And the same nite Ah Loh saw a fren of her dat used to win her heart before…
Dat treats her like a princess but she rejected him
C! LOH LI CHIN! reali best describe her!!!
Now he lovingly found his happiness..Ah Loh is happy for him too..the gal superbly sweet!!

Like I said to Jasmine..as a fren all I can do is to walk wit her ..
I cant choose the road for her..My advices or opnions oso may not even mean a thing to her
But yes...I will walk wit her..
But NIASING..tis time is the walk to hell wor..Really want meh??!!!

....^^!

2008-08-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

It's been a real hectic and exhausting weeks for me!!!
Bek to Malacca-a breath-taking trip! I can hardly graps an air!!
Can't consider it as a rushing one compared to my previous trip but tis one really am darn tiring!

Wokey,before I start to write any further.I would like to say a big big: SOLLiii" to the brand name..
FUBU~~~
Went for a movie with a fren n he told me FUBU is actually a brand for an international clothing line..so..SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lol..cant blame me oso mah..how I know wor..
hahahaa..my tai-chi level up one stage!!!

Okie,now bek to my trip to the historical state-Malacca!!
The night before we went there,I watched the Olympic ceremony withYee Teng
Got home around 1am and pass my bedtime jor lor..how?!!
I can't sleep so I watched DVDs till around 7am and woke up at 9am.. T_T
We started our journey at 10am..by the time we reached there..we walked like hell to look for the Baba House!
Whose fault is dat?!! Surely my steamboat kaki-Ah Teng loh! Tai-chi level up again!!! Muahahahaa!!
Told her to get a beca..Yes,u read it correctly..not a taxi..a beca..a trishaw ride but she said dunwan..
Finally wen we get to the Baba House..I’ve always wanted to stay there..They said all rooms fully booked!
Nia sing!!!
Wat bout the reservation I made? And I made it 1 week in advanced!
“Sorry ..no records recorded!”
Ah Teng so angry and stomped out from there and crossed the road to Puri Hotel
Maybe I was too happy to be bek to Malacca...I dun reali had a temper
I talked to the receptionist nicely and successfully got us a room!!
A deluxe room..v took the most expensive room..so of cox I expect a very nice one loo..
Ookie before anything..wanna elaborate a bit bout tis Baba House
It's highly recommended by the Malaysian Tourism Board as a MUST VISIT place!!
RM120 a nite for a budget hotel..ermm..some said expensive but let's see..

The place is superb..so old-time feel!!!
Yes!!! Lesson learnt!!! Muahahhaa..Hotels like dis is great to go in and walk walk,look look and snap some pics but not for OVER-NITE!!!
Ah Teng agreed too..why?..u’ll find out soon
We get the keys and rushed to the room..very excited
Got in and the first impression is "WAH!! Really old feel wor!!"
Indeed a very small room..and dis the the most expensive room? LOL!
The beds..once u got up on it..eeeiikkk okkk eiikk okkk..the sounds..as u weigh 200 pounds and the bed will collapse at anytime…
Ah Teng..ur bed made the worst noise!
D beds..still acceptable …but the toilet.... -_-“
At first I tot HUH?!! No hot water? Sei em sei oh?!!!!!
Rushed out from the room and got to the front desk..
Orr..My mistake ..got hot water de..just gotto wait a while onli..
We put our begs and went straight to Jonkers street!
Everything there is superbly nice and so so cheap!!!!!!!
We shop like mad..and Yes! Eat like crazy too!!
Honestly,I am not a big fan for Malacca foods..The foods are so so so undescribeable SWEET!!!!!

Okie..lotsa shop n shop eat n eat n WALK n WALK!!
We bek to the hotel and took our bath
Forget to mention..there are so darn many museums in Malacca!!!
After the bath and stealed a 5mins nap,we hit the street again!
Tis time we got a beca ride
Walaueh!! The beca rider speaking de lor..his english is so welll!
He must get an A in history! Every building we passed by..He’ll tell us the history bout dat place or maybe he just say say onli lah..how we know rite..hahahaa!

And yes! The nite market at Jonkers street!! Luv it!
We got our manicure..so cheap! Only cost us RM20! The cheapest in KL is RM40!
Den v eat a little and head straight bek to hotel..we need to SLEEP!!
Went to bed after d bath
Baba House..It's a semi-wood n concrete building..
So at nite..we can hear tap tap tap..sounds of people walking thru the corridor above us..and its 4am!!!
And yes the hotel is also under renovation at the moment...
DENG!!!!!!!! Den there is this - cutest room-service uncle! He knocked our door around 5am!!!! NIASING!
Aside from dat..Im used to have supper...funny..they lock the main entrance wit a gigantic lock!!
So if u wanna go out..wun be a problem..wake the uncle up but wen u wanna get bek in..
Ermmmm..u may try n let me know!
Plus Ah Teng oredi toured with Uncle Zao son..so all I can do is to force myself to sleep!
And add in one more sound..my stomach..kelok kelok..
I hardly sleep the whole nite..Im overly sensitive to sound..
Den wen I finally get to sleep..
“Do mo chuen dik chuen chue..(silly silly pig)” my phone rang..my little bro. Nickie callled…LOL!!

We woke up around 9am..Im starving..
Rushed to the hotel cafeteria to have our breakfast..n the breakfast is LOL!!!
They call that a breakfast?!! More like a snack to me!!!!
But since the both of us are stil darn sleepy..We bek to our room and nap til 11++
Bathed and check out at 12pm..
V den go n have our BRUNCH!!-breakfast+lunch at Geographer Café..
We stocked boxes of tarts before heading bek to KL

In the car,Ah Teng screamed to her lung..
"I WAN TO GO VISIT MINI M’SIA & ASEAN!!"
"I DUN CARE..I WAN..I WAN!!!!!!"
Act..Im so so so tired jor but Aikss..okie lor since I never been there too..
And the most crucial reason is..she is the driver..sob sob..I can't say no...

There v go..Mini M'sia & Asean-a very cool place but my advise..
NO HEELS!!
The place is damn damn huge..n v gotto walk..AGAIN..WALK!!!!!
Before v even complete visiting the houses for Malaysia..let alone the Asian..
Ah Teng held me tightly and say.."hehe.. lets go home looo..."
NIA SING ah..just now wanted so much to come in den now half-way wanna bek
But I agreed wit her too lah..hahahha..cox I am too trully freakingly exhausted!!

Wen I got home..I finally realised the meaning of the phrase
"HOME SWEET HOME!!!"
"IM HOME!!" " MY BED!!!" " MY PILLOW!!!"
Took a bath and zooossshhh…me in the comma mode till tomolo morning..
Blessedly I set my alarm or else …

For my trip to Penang tis Oct..I wanna stay in a MODERN-STYLE hotel!! hahahaa
And oso end of tis year to Langkawi…
And not to forget tis Sept..the craziest party of the month..BARLIAR!!!
Wonder wat will happen if I ffk dat nite…

thanks Gary!!!

2008-08-13T10:00:00.000-07:00

hahaha..gary thanks..but i prefer the previous one..hahaha..

FUBU..Wat d fCUk?!!!!

2008-08-05T23:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday while I was chatting with a friend,she asked me bout FUBU...
FUBU? U must be wondering what it means..
She just came back from India and I thought she was saying in some Samy Vellu language! HOHOHO!!
FUBU..nope..it's not a brand name but it is a trendy trend that’s happening in town now!
Huh? Whats dat?
FUBU means Fuck Buddy!
LOL !! What the fCUk? Some may responded in dat way..Thats my first and foremost reaction!
First it's called a one nite stand..
Den it changed to sex partner
Den now it evolved and nicely n sweetly named as “FUck BUddy”..LOL!!!!

It makes me think what will I do if ever there is a fren come up to me and “invite” me to be his FUBU..
I guess without a doubt..I will really FCUk him upside down!! HAHAHA!!!
Damn!!! What is wrong with the people nowdays!
U wan to fCUk,den just fCUk,stop d fCUking n idiotic dramas..

"Oooo..ya..we fCUk..BUT! Got but de.. I do so hor..cox I see him/her as a fren mah.."
Damn! Just stop being a faker! Just admit that u are lusty and u want a fCUk!!!!
Just FCUk and den FCUk off!
Stop those FCUking lame excuses as if u are force to do so! Niasing ah!!!

I really dunno wats in the mind of the gals
The guys of cox ..lol..free mah..eat lor..which cat dun eat fish de..rite mou?
Niasing ah..Free den u eat..those shit and garbage on the street oso FOC mah..
Go and eat lah..Niasing!!!
Dun get me wrong..I am not here to judge..
I have nothing against tis FUBU thing..just dat..its..lol..hard to describe!
I mean dun say u love someone den u want them to be ur FUBU!
If u reali love somone and cherish them, u will never hurt them tis badly!!!

"Ooo..actually i got feelings for her de,but the time isn't rite den dunno how..we hamsap jor..she ok wit it oso mah"
Niasing ah..gimme a break!!!! For the guys,just be a real man!!!
Just tell the gal u wan her to be ur FUBU,
"my gugu itchy now n I cant afford to go get a kokkok..ehh,so u can help me out ah?”
"huh? i like u mou? sure loo..sure like u loo..but wen u help me out lah..after dat ah..c how things go first lah"
"most important we happy mah now,rite mou?"

Sounds familiar?? Like Chan Fung,my favourite ex-988 DJ said before..
The tactics are the same for the jerks..
Difference is only the victims..

HE WILL GUIDE OUR WAY..AND BRING US BACK!

2008-07-31T00:58:00.000-07:00

Its been quite somedays I didn’t update my blog
Friends asked why
Errmm..can u blame me? I’ve only get 2-3 hours of sleep everyday for last month!!
Busy in work?
No..I also don’t know why..maybe something to do with the fengshui of my room!!
Got to get some advices from Lilian Tut..oopss..LiLIAN Too!
Plus I’ve got no idea as what to write
Normally things I write is about Hurts..Love and it SUCKS!!!

But just cant stand wen I read the article bout tis FCUKING BITCH-Sienna Miller!!!
Sorry for being rude! Ermm..by the way..I am a rude rude gall lor..LOL..
If u dunno who is she,Just copy her name and search it in the internet

She’s now dating a married man-a man with 4 kids and married for 8 years
The youngest child is only 10 months old
What really heats me up is pictures of her naked and topless almost for 23 hours..
with that fcuking jerk..hugging..kissing and cuddling each other in public!
He grabs her boobs and she grabs his balls!!
The least she can do is wait till that jerk to get a divorce! If he will lah..u know..men..
Then they can have sex everywhere and anytime they want!

The wife,reported to be too humiliated and gotto fly to another country with the kids
I bet except being humiliated..she is hurt too..very very much

When I read the news..I was shocked
Sienna Miller-this is the woman that got herself heart-broken when her fiancé,Jude Law cheated on her with their nanny-baby sitter
She should know how much it hurts to be betrayed
Why is she doing the same to another innocent woman?
I talked to a fren and only realized tis wasn’t her first time
Jude Law too left his family behind-wife and kids becox of her
Goosshhh..tis bitch is certainly really good in wrecking homes!!!
I really dun understand how some person is so capable in hurting someone else

Last 2 weeks, I went out shopping wit Jasmine and she was in a real sad mode!
She was sad til she received a call from the DH and u can c the sky suddenly becomes so bright
Den the next morning I was waken up by her calls
She told me he didn’t pick up her calls
She called him many many many times
I hate to hear tis
If u dunwan that person to call u, just pick the call n tell them off!!
I once called him..I forgot how many many many times
All I remember ..
I was smiling wen I call him till I cry (cox the calls went unanswered)
Till I finally laugh (laughing at myself,when will I want to accept the truth)
Till I fall asleep
I guess there must be around 20 calls

When u woke up and see 20 missed calls frm ur gf/bf
Wat will u do?
Even if its a number I am not familiar wit
Dunno bout u but I will surely call back or get to the nearest public phone if my line is out of service
But he didn’t
He didn’t call the whole day..the next day..the next next day..the next next next day
And the very next next next next next day
Till I finally call him and pretend nothing ever happened!

He promised never to let me feel unwanted
Lol..i forgot..promises are meant to be broken

Jasmine told me she cant sleep
She borrowed lotsa drama series from me
Sui poh,if u are reading tis,make sure u return ah..
She did all she can to get him out of her mind
She cries as she speaks
I recalled years ago when I was in one of those shitful days
Jasmine said cooly she dun understand why I am stil holding on
And now she apologized and said she understands it well

Yes I dun blame those who dun understand
Many said I am silly ..stuborn and even “cheap”
“people dunwan u oredi lah..oredi so obvious..u so cheap..keep disturbing him”
Honestly I pray they will neve know how it feels cox if they do
It means they are experiencing those hurtful moments
It is a real hard way to walk thru
And I am thankful that I did not walk alone
Jesus walked with me and HE blesses me with lotsa angels
It took me years and years to finally accept the fact that we are not meant for each other
And years n years n years for me to let go
It takes time
and I am thankful that I pull it thru

Wanna share something really comforting
The pastor said no matter how far we go..The Lord will bring us back
So..if you are in some very difficult moments ..
Remember..HE WILL GUIDE OUR WAY..AND BRING US BACK!
Thank U Jesus for loving me.Amen

dudu..dudu.."halo,it's 988!!"

2008-07-16T17:59:00.000-07:00

I cant remember when but it must be somewhere last week, I was half-awake when I heard these from my
favorite radio station 988! The DJs, I can't remember their names..I only know Chan Fung..Haha!
The DJ said a listener wrote in an-email,sort of Q&A section seeking for help..
Okie..let us help the poor guy..

This is about BLOGS!!
The poor guy found out from his fren dat his galfren had a blog..HE FOUND IT FROM HIS FRENS!
When he browsed thru his gal blog..he is horrified!! Why??
His baby wrote all the "I miss u" .."Miss u so terribly muchie" posts but all the misses are not meant for him..
Its for her ex--!!!
So this poor guy is miserable as to wat to do..and Yes! We are here to help!!

I playfully called up the station number,I was still very much in my sleeping mode-covered in my blanket..
Hehe..and DUDU DUDU DUDU..”Halo..988..who is dis?” ..Goosshhh!! I am all awake now!
“Siew Yen here!” "Siew Yen,u are the second caller,u wait awhile ya” "Okie”,I replied..
Without wasting a minute..I rushed to my fridge, goggled a glass of water,I dunwan to be mistaken as a MR!!!

When comes my turn ..I said I will asked for a break-up..Clearly the bitch isn’t over her ex yet, so why bother to be together? The gal DJ talked a lot..like "oorhh,we cant blame someone for missing someone..afterall he is once the love of her life and bla bla bla..I am stil not in my battlefield mode..The call ended..
Of cox it will never be a problem to THINK OF someone..but it is a REAL DEAL wen U MISS someone!
It shows u think too much of dat particular person and he is her ex-! She should be missing her current beau and not some past-tense guys!
Blog..We use it to write all sorts of stuffs that we want to share with others..
Those that matters to us..that get on our nerves..
Mostly because we wanna let our feelings be known and this gal wrote the posts behind his back and wrote bout how much she misses her ex..
Obviously she wants her ex to read it and know dat she is missing him!

I’ve actually wrote a post bout the chat I had wit Swat Keng on last Sunday..On why she is turning me to a lesbo..Hoho..Dun get me wrong, She is completely straight ...Ermm..me? Ermmm..just say that now I understands why the lesbo population increased! It's great to kiss gals too..been kissing a few lately!! Haha! Only few gets to read it cox I deleted it few hours after I posted it..
Swat Keng is the first Christian..of cox aside from Sherry-my angel that did not condemn me..
Sherry knew wat I've been going thru but Swat Keng..We duno each other well and yet..She just being so nice
and understanding and top of all NO CONDEMN!!

The reason I wrote it is I hope..Yeh! Slap me! Haha!! One day if he ever comes across my blog,he will see how much I’ve struggled to keep the relationship and how much I treasured it!
Wish that he will get a taste of all the hellish days I've been thru..
That he will understands sometimes, people have to do the things they don't wish to do...
But I deleted it cox I just felt it is useless..If he reads it.so what..will he ever change..NO!
or YES! Miracles do happen! For a couple of days..

These few days ..ever since from Saturday nite..I’ve been uhhuuhh..thinking of him a lot..
Too freakingly LOTS dat it freaks me out too..
It's no one faults..I lead myself into all these and I am paying for it now..
REALLY NIASING!!!

heartbreaks in silence..

2008-07-14T13:50:00.000-07:00

After service on Sunday morning, I went for lunch with Joanne at Tsim Tung-my favourite hang out
The milk tea..who can resist??!!
Yes! I went to church on sunday morning…after so many excuses..
Actually I planned to skip the service..but praise the Lord,HE brought me there!
will write a special post regarding this later..thanks the Lord for both Suat Keng and Yee teng!

I promised to go to Pavillion with Michael but my Mum called on Saturday afternoon and asked me to accompany her to look for houses around Pandan Indah area. But she cancelled the date,so I went out with Joanne,I wanted to talk to her too.We chatted for hours and went for a movie-Hancock!
Nice movie..it is very touching one indeed..

Went home and then went out again -____-" to have steamboat with Yee Teng..
On the way home,she played a song to me
She said if I were to listen to the song few months ago..when I was still unsure of my decision..I’ll surely cry..
I told her I am going to cry even rite at dat moment I listen to the song..

This is the song lyric and I’ve translated in to my own version

李聖傑-靠近

走在人擠人的走道　我問了自己　沒有愛情的人是否會長命
那些電影常常讓人感覺甜蜜　但是我　不相信
坐在沒有人的角落　我又問自己
究竟應該繼續還是該放棄　沒有人能了解我現在的心情　想看你　想躲你　難以決定
每當我想靠近　你總會裝冷靜　眼看你的表情　彷彿己經說明
我只想要證明　我們這段愛情　也許在你眼裡　它只是個遊戲
我只想要靠近　也很想要抱緊　回想到那過去　和現在新的你
我還想要參與　你的生活點滴　只要你肯相信　我一定會陪你走下去
能不能夠讓我再說我愛你　還是你己不想聽
能不能夠把你徹底的忘記　我是真的搞不清

Walking thru the crowded streets
I ask myself
What a life would be for those without love
Those romantic movies that touches the heart
Make everything seems so sweet
But I don’t believe in such a fairy-tale ending do exist in the world
I am living in

Sitting alone in a corner of the street
Again, I ask myself
Should I still hang on or
Should I let go
No one can understand the feelings I have inside of me

I want to see you
I want to run away from you
I don’t know which one to decide

Every time I get closer
You’ll act cool and withdraw yourself from me
From your face expression.. it is clearly shown
I just want to prove
Our love.. in your eyes is just a game

I just want to be closer
And also I wanted to hug you tightly
Recalling the pages of our past
You are the new you now
I still want to be part in your life
Just that you believe
I’ll walk with you till the very end

Can I still tell you I love you
Or you will not want to hear it anymore
Or can I wipe you off my life completely?
I really can’t decide

T_T

im back!!! YEN is back!!

2008-07-09T17:40:00.000-07:00

Guess Veron,my ex-colleague is right! She advised me not to dwell too much with frens dats facing relationship problems.She said it’ll make me think negatively..
And just now reading back all my past post..OMmmmGGGG!!..
I was in so much hurt and it’s just weeks ago...
And now..here I am sitting and thinking..hehe..
Honestly, maybe none wil trust me since I am so gagaga wanted to be with him so gaagaaagaa badly but buuummm!! ~ now I want to say I am over him!!!
Yes, WE are OVER centuries ago..
The point is I AM over him...huUUUh? sure boh?!!

Okie, I went out this few days and had so much fun.. I called him on Monday nite..
Talking to him..Ermm..How can I put it in words..
Actually that nite I am so DAMN pissed with a fren and I need to talk to someone..
I called my Sis, the line get disconnected so I called him as he is with my Sis.
Sis phone out of battery and she is on the way home..
So I figured,I just talk to him cause it's around 2am already..Too early to give another fren a call..

I remember there was one time I cried after I read my mom’s e-mail..I wanted to call him
We are stil together at that moment but I dun dare to do so..Funny hor,why ler?
Becox Im afraid it will go unanswered..Im already hurting..I dun need any extra surprises!!

Yes! Being around with Ice and others..These few nites..
Especially lastnite,I enjoy myself so freakingly much!
I dun need to be an angel to be treated like one!!
I enjoy the drink,the chat,the dance, the compliments,the gifts..hoho ^^…and Yes! the flirts!!
It is superbly nice to flirt around..because there is no real feelings involved!!
We just get together,have fun and have fun and have fun..FUN!!
In the flirting world,everything is FAKE and everything is just LIE!!
I love tis feelings so so much!!

Stil dun get why I am OVER him? Actually,almost- 80% of my outfits scream of seduction!! >_<
Can't entirely blame my clothes,I mean..Ermm..me and my fren wear the same shirt,the color is different but everyone say I am sexy but none say dat to her!! Damn!!
He dun like me drees sexily..So,I’ve to buy some ‘proper’ clothes wen Im out with him..-____-"
Stil remember...hehe..quite vividly,my colleagues,we planned to go for a movie in a group and bring along our spouses! I am very happy and exicted!! I can FINALLY intro him to my colleagues!!
Plus it's been quite some time we hit the cinema or should say out together!! he is always BUSY!!!
So I purposely go and shop for a new shirt! Some may find me silly but just the thought of seeing him already
send me to heaven..hehe..Yeh,slllaaaapp me!!

The plan cancelled but we still go to the movie on our own,when he saw me,he didnt say anything..
Den in the cinema,he said “Told u not to wear like dis,u stil dunwan to listen,u think very nice meh?”..
Im like..GOOoooossh!!
Do I look dat horrible in that shirt..Yup..Maybe dat shirt makes me look fat..
And i never wear it again..till recently..I went out with Michael for a movie

While waiting for him,I went to the optical shop to get my lenses and the Sales person,a malay gal said,
"Wow..I wish I have ur body" ..Duh! Do she means my boobs..Hahaha
The moment I enter Michael car,he look at me and say..WOW..u look pretty! ^^!
I just wish that will comes from his mouth .. :_(

The point is, in the past I hated him to smoke..Den he said not to smoke infront of me..
Den better, he said he quit smoking and buuUMMmm.he is back with the ciggies
I dun even mind him smoking around me anymore..as part of the reason we broke up in the past was his fren told me he isn’t himself wen he is with me..den ok loh..u want to smoke den u smoke lor..

Funny...I on the other hand have to be someone I am not when I am with him..
I CANNOT DO THIS!! I CANNOT DO THAT!!
I CANNOT WEAR LIKE THIS..I CANNOT..I CANNOT AND I CANNOT!!! Arrrgghhh!!!
The conversation just make me realized we are so so so SOOOOOO different..In everything..
Yeh,SLAP ME!! ..took me almost a decade to finally admit it! Hehehe!!

But now I am really feeling great..we are stil frens..No one to be blamed..
We are just so so SOOOOOO not meant to be together!

And yes,I will be bek to church..tis Sunday!!!! Hallelujah!
The Lord loves me terribly muchiee..
I’ve always use the transportation as an excuse for not attending church services..-_-"
And guess where is the church I am going to located at??
Just right next to my house!! Praise the Lord!!

Yeh!! I am bek!! Rainy days over!!
Goodbye SORROWS!!
HELLO..MY HAPPY SUNRISE!!!

sleep+sleep+sleep!!

2008-07-09T11:40:00.000-07:00

Okie..Back to Monday noon,he replied and Yes,the paisey level drops down..
Went out on Monday nite..and damn it!! tis time I didn’t sms him but I called him!!!
Very piss-off with 2 frens of mine!! I need to talk to someone or I'll explode!!
Guess everyone hate to be accussed of something we didn’t do!
My fren said I kissed a guy! Damn,I know wen I kiss someone! And I did not!
Okie,tis is done and dunwan to dwell too much into it..

The second one,should I say I am pissed or should I say I am deeply upset with this fren of mine..
It just sucks when people we reali care and love doesn’t feels the same like us..
Or they just dun realize how much they meant in our life..
I’ve been thinking a lot bout this.But cant blame her..
I mean,Yes,she is important to me but I can't force her to make me one of her important person..

Gone the sobber and comes the sunshine!!

Met a hot babe-Ice!!
Seen her a few times but we finally had a real conversation on Monday nite!!
She is so funny and she is hot.love her! And love being around her! Hahaha!!
She is the main reason I went out lastnite,I was so tired..but I wanted to see her so i went out!
When Im with her,I am so comfy with myself..and Katty too!!
I am so against people saying bad words.. in the past..hehe..
Now,I am one of them and the worst part is my frens love me swearing! Hahaaa!
Actually it feels nice too..hahaha
But..I must stop it.It is not dat good...I can surely-100% do so in the morning but at nite.. >_<”

I must have drank a lot lastnite..I fell asleep once I was home!
Thats is with my makeup on!! Urrgghh.my skin!!
I always make sure I cleanse my face before I go for a tour with Uncle Zao son ..

Make up my mind!! Tonite I am for hibernation!!! Wanna sleep+sleep+sleep!!
And my house,TERRIBLY messy..if there is a cockroach,I can't blame my neighbours..

paisey paisey..>_<

2008-07-07T13:20:00.000-07:00

Lastnite I went out and had a few drinks with my frens
I asked their opinions,should I send him a sms
And they encouraged me to do so..
Honestly, I really duno why or am I still expecting a non-existing miracle..
So I got home, had my bath, put on some songs and starts sending him sms..
And worse was..I sent him too many sms..
Meaning I said too much..way too muuuccchhhhh....
And he didn’t reply
Goosshhh is there a word to describe my feelings now?
Yes! there is…PAISEY!!!Gooossshh..im so so Paisey-if im not mistaken, it means shameful in Hokien!!

PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAiiiisssssssssssssEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYY!!!!

my heart bleeds for u and u dont even see me...

2008-07-01T16:44:00.000-07:00

Went to watch Wanted, a great show, Angelina Jolie! Superb hot!! at Pavilion on Sunday noon with Michael.

He is one person that I admired a lot ! Salute his determination in stil believing that "TRUE LOVE" exist!! Hahaha.After being fooled,ooppss..errm..being used,err..no no..being hurt,yes! this sounds better,he still believes in "True Love", Haha!

In the cinema, the girl dat sat beside me hugged her boyfriend.I remembered the moment when I hugged him in the cinema.Then only I realized that I still wanted to hug and be hugged,I wanted to kiss and be kissed..
Too bad,some will surely wanna slap me real hard,Haha,I only want him..

At nite, I went out for a drink,5 gals..
May asked me did I still in touch with him
I said,honestly,hehe till lastweek I still checked into his account in frenster..Hohoho
But I will never do so anymore..erm..heard it too many times? Haha..I told her,honestly,I am stil very much very very much in love with him..very very much
But I can never ever be with him..he never existed..

May advised me to start anew with someone new..it will be easier to let go..many said that.I hate it.

Getting a Mr.Rebound? Oh No no no!!! I am a sucker in the love department.I can easily attracted to someone.I like someone freakingly easy but I only love and wanted him.I did tried but like i said,i cant remember whom i been with to d fairy wheel till i look at the pictures..as in my memory,i was there with him becox in my everything,i just want him.Yeh,Slap me!

Tammy told me she wish she knew some of her ex- frens,so she can get to know latest news about him.

I told Tammy I wish I dun know a single soul dats related to him cox everytime i heard bout him, the news,got me in tears...

Aikkksss..if only i can find a word to describe my feelings now..

"my heart bleeds for u and u dont even see me...."

MakeLove (VS) Have Sex

2008-06-30T20:27:00.000-07:00

Sex partner.What rings into ur mind when u heard of it? Sex partner viewed as a partner to have sex with no responsibility in between.For some it’ll be better than one nite stand cox with a sex partner,u know each other and u will continually meeting up till one party call it quits

Elisha,after breaking up with her boyfriend,they still secretly meet up and yes,being his sex partner.She knew it is wrong but Yeah,love will make a fool even worse.She wanted to see him and the way she gets to see him is to be his sex partner.

She told herself she will be okay.It won't hurt her.Everytime the guy walk off,my phone will rang.I’ll hear her crying uncontrollably on the other side.She kept telling herself dat she won't cry anymore,everytime, before the meet up and she ended up in tears for almost 2 years.

Ask mothers that gives births.Do they in pain during labour times? The answer will definately be “like hell!” So much pain! No matter that is the third times or the fourth even the fifth times,the pain is there.
Yes,it is weird.There will be things that’ll hurt us so much no matter how many times we are caught in the same situation.

Finally she call it quit as she never wanted to end up losing the friendship too.She thought by starting a new chapter with someone new,she'll able to eventually moves on.Thats all her friends advises.That's what I call a Mr.Rebound and it will never be a wise decision as she still clings on to the past promises.The end was inevitable,she ended up with more hurts.
A very good friend of ours,Dalphne said,sometimes in life,things won't be fair all the time.We love dat special someone.We wanted to spend our live loving and being loved by them.Unfortunately,not all end up being Cinderella.A fairy-tale ending.We can stil continually in love with that person but we can never show it.We can only love them in your heart.They can only reside in our heart.

Making love and having sex, what the differences? Same actions..Hahahe..Yes,the spelling is different.And it’s with a huge difference meaning!!
Making love, yes, there’s a word, Love, that’s the highest level of communication, where two souls truly blend together,its based on love as foundation.
Having sex, it is too based on a word dat starts with L, thats Lust. Will it be romantic..U tell me..
If ur partner ever gives u the feelings dat you are just having sex,then,there’s only one thing u can do for urself,walk away..im wrong,should be RUN AWAY!

Yes, there is stil another way.Foolishly continue to be a fool.Some of us,especially gals are too preoccupied with the year terms.
"O! I’ve been with him for 3 years ..I’ve walked so far..i can't just walk off like this!"
Yes, 3 years,U’ll say it's 3 years,den 4 den 5 years and all the way up.
"He is a bastard but i'm with him for 9 years already!!" Goossshh!!! And yes,for us, gals,how many 9 years we have..the next time u cry,it’ll be 20 years.When u look back,u’ll surely be sorry with yourself.Some will even say,"Cheh! Anytime I can get a divorce.."
Thanks to him,only then I realized that in God,marriage is like our life,we can only have it for one time.We must choose correctly..We only live for once,except all the guy-gal relationship,there’s so much things dat needs our love,our care..
Our relationship with the Lord,with our family,friends and our job
In life,there is no "Take 2" .. Same goes to Marriage.

OMG!! OMGG!! and OMG!!!!

2008-06-27T12:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday evening,I went out with a friend of mine for steamboat! I believe everything happens for a reason.The Lord will never caught in surprises.There is a reason for everything.I agreed to meet Tammy as she is so persistence in seeing me-so badly!! Haha!!

The Lord is truly awesome.This is all I can say.HE must’ve see that I’ve not truly “let go”.I admit that yes,I do accept the fact that we can never be together hand in hands but at least there is stil a room for friendship, not for now but some day later..I am still looking forward for that day to come.And HE send this friend of mine as a messenger to tell me “NO!”

Tammy told me she once went out for a dinner with him.A group of them.She asked him do he has my contact number,as there were few months I had temporarily changed my number.He said “No,he don’t have and he don’t know” , The way he replied gave her the impression that he dont know me well..OMG!!! Is that real?? Am I listening well? Gossshhh!! Then,who the heck that slept right next to me?? OMG, OMG and OMG!!! I asked her again,is she sure he is the one replying and when was that.

She confirmed he is the one and she is surprised to find out that I am in a relationship with him when she read my blog.The first post,I attached a picture of him!!! My God!!! How could he??!!! How can I ever forgive him??!!! I am a sinner myself..i commited a lot of sins,I ‘ve no right to judge him..but how can I ever forgive him??!! It really freaking hurt me!! He denied my existence long before we finally call it quit!! I am speechless!!

I should be out having drinks later on and catch the game, Spain (vs) Russia with frens,but I headed home after the dinner.It is hard enough for me to see him doing tremendously well-back on track soon after the break-up, as it doesn’t mean anything to him at all and it eats me up to know now that he never leave the track at all.

I called up Sharmaine,I needed someone to talk to.I didn’t burst into tears. This time is just too much. There’ll be no more tears from me for this person.And can I ever thank the Lord enough for this amazing young lady-Sharmaine? I’ve known her for 12 years!! We had a fun conversation,laughing our heart out.After we ended the call,she sent me a message.She said she too read my blog and realized how much hurt Ive been thru.

When we see someone being cut by a knife,we know it hurts,surely it does.But the only person that know how much it actually hurts,it’s the one that being cut by the knife.And yes,it hurts awfully much.

Sometimes I will wish I can take my heart out from my body as it just too much pain.I cry the moment I wake up.I cry in the bathroom.I cry when I am getting ready to work.In the office,i cry in the toilet and I cry myself to sleep.I am truly blessed that in all the pit-falls that I fell into,Sharmaine is always there to pull me up! Thank U, Jesus, for this angel U’ve sent to me.

I deleted all the remaining sms that I still keep in my mobile.The gifts,the 3 gifts that I’v e kept for years,it's with the MPAJ now.Threw them all into the bin! The pictures,tear it into pieces.Never thought I’ll acted such a way! I've always thought there were times he trully in love with me. I blame myself most the time for not being a better lover that I let him walked away so easily. I should be more understanding, he said he is busy,I should’ve trusted him and have more confidence in him! Goossshhh!!! I am stupid to think maybe for one second he actually care! He never once being commited.
Everything he said,everything he did..everything is just lies!!

I’ll stil in the dark if I had not been out with this friend of mine.Thanks to her too.Don't feel bad for telling me. I am indeed very grateful u did.

For me to ever trust a guy again? It will confirmly takes a long deal of time to recover.
Sis.jon once told me,she is sick for getting hurt in a relationship.She wanted to be a wicked person,to protect herself from being a victim again.I told her that is not the way, turning ourself into one of those lousy person,will that make us feel better,it wont,it’ll make us no difference from them.

Now,I just want to spend all my time,my love and my energy towards the people that truly cares for me,my mum and surely all my angels in my angels listing.
And to all my friends that I've always "aeroplane/fong fei ke" not keeping my word,it won't happen anymore!Haha,hopefully!! Cheers to Friendship!!
And Yes! Spain won!!!! Cheerssssss!!!!!

u have me for 24/7!!

2008-06-26T13:03:00.000-07:00

I had known Jasmine,if u had read the bulletin I posted in Friendster,u’ll know the name had been changed due to some lessons learnt in the past.I posted a story bout my CEO and he read it -_-" and the rest is history and yes! lesson learnt!!

For those whom haven’t read it before,I’ll introduced u to this angel of mine.Jasmine,I've known her for 5 years now..goosshh..time really flies! She is such a lovely young lady.Everyone in the office said she looks so much like Gigi Leong Weng Kei, the Hong Kong actress and singer.Even the malay colleagues said so!! She is smart, cheerful and she is a darling!!!

She loves to laugh and her laughter’s turns to tears ever since she met this ‘DH’! I almost lost count of the numbers she cried infront of me because of this jerk! It certainly rip me apart too, seeing her in such a mess and the only thing she ever did wrong is to fall in love with the DH!!

She sent me several messages on Tuesday night and I certainly understand very well how she felt. She asked, is she an idiot?, honestly, to me she isn’t. The real idiot is the DH! She continued by asking me is he serious with her? I replied,Yes,Sure.Surely he is serious in making her a fool.Surely he is serious in hurting her and without a doubt, surely he is serious to get her on his bed.

Sis.Jon once told me she felt that we are living in a fake world.I told her,it would be so nice if we are really in a fake world,at least we realise everything is fake and we wont fall in love with fake words.We get touched and we fell in love with them,with their promises only to find out..it is all lies..it is fake.

Jasmine told me it hurts her to be in that situation but it also hurts her to let go.She once commented that whenever I talk to her, as if I am in her shoes, that I understand so well whats in her heart.She is right.I do.I’ve been through it.Thanks to another angel of mine, Sharmaine, I am able to pull myself out from the misery.

I can still be in what he regards as the on/off relationship.Anytime, it’s my call, I can call it on and I can call it quit, anytime!. I will just need to wait patiently for him to come over and look for me when he feels like it.I will still get to see him, few times a month. I tried,like my angel, Jasmine did.Yeah, it hurts to be with him but it hurts to let go.I want to still get to see him.Saying no means I don’t get to see him anymore.

And thankfully,it dont take long for me to finally walk away. I am not as strong as I thought I am. I cried everytime the calls went unanswered,not for a day but for days..I don’t have the courage to even ask him why he don’t answer the calls..because I know it will be all lies.Do he knows that his actions hurts me? Surely he does! But will he cares? I don’t think I need anyone to tell me the answer.I believe Jasmine had the answer too.

I just want her to know,as a friend,I will never want her to go thru the awful experiences that I once been thru.But if she stubornly,haha,just like me,choose to fall into the arms of the DH,I will always be there for her.Anytime she needed someone,I will be there.she will never walk alone.We will never be alone,our Abba Father is here,right beside us.
And to another angel of mine,Sharmaine,she is truly my guardian angel.I can never thank the Lord enough for her.

To all the jerks and bitches outhere,just wish you all well in hell! Goossshhh..they got me cursing again!! Haha!!
And yes, DH stands for Dick-Head!! Haahahaa

the nite ends perfect!!

2008-06-24T11:55:00.000-07:00

I am still very much alive! woke up at 7 this morning, thought I would’ve at least sleep till 8!
Last night was great! Ends well..haha..drink and drunk but didn’t passed out! No vomiting! and wake up this morning with a big smile! And a big eyes too..i mean swollen eyes..garfiled eyes..
Many said to avoid getting drunk,put salt or the sour plum in the drink ..tell u what! NONSENSE!
But I do love to add sour plums in my drink because it makes it tastier! Haha! To avoid getting drunk,surely only one way-dont drink too much! Haha! Basically,for me,I'll just make sure I've had enough sleep!

Got home from work,lie on the bed,wanna get some sleep but couldn’t.So I watched the 8pm news while getting ready to go out, that’s when I realized the importance to vote! Haha! Getting a bit political here!
The opposition parties,named the Parti Pakatan Rakyat tried to oppose the government to rise up the fuel price and want the price back to RM1.92 but they failed as the votes isn’t enough..simply because they have only a few members in the Parlimen! Goosshh! If there is a survey done to the “rakyat”, 100% except those ass-kisser, will never agreed to the nonsense of increasing the price!

I get set and headed out.Saw lots of long lost friends.And I made some new friends, they asked for numbers and the ever sweet me will politely gives but the ever bitchy me will never pick up the calls.Haha..Honestly I am a very lazy person..a very lazy one till the stage I am lazy to even chat on the phone..some reading this will say “true or not?” haha..I can chat non-stop at times..Some I do will keep in touch,those whom really leaves an impression to me,I’ll saved their numbers immediately at that moment,those I dun bother to save,meaning I dun want to be bother..Haha

And one of the guy,Ah Mun, a friend of my friends cried infront of me! aikss,supposingly the nite should be fun but the guy cried infront of me!!! He just broke up..months ago.He is sad.I told him it is normal to be sad.He said the reason the girl left him is because he isn’t rich..and he mumbled all the girls are materialistic!
Let me put it this way,that is not materialistic,that is just being REALISTIC! I don’t like the idea of some gals that will look for someone to pay their bills, don’t get me wrong,I dont have problems for guys paying my bills! I love it! Haha!

Then he asked me why and why his girl left him in such despair..Gosshh,as if I know his gal,Haha,I just met him hours ago,left alone his gal..I told him something I get from a drama I watched..
A hong kong drama-"A journey called life" ,a very meaningful and touching drama!
In it, the actor said, there are lots of reasons when two souls get together but there is only one reason when they parted away, the love isn’t there anymore..
No matter how hard u try to save a relationship,it will be useless because the main and upmost ingredient -“love” isn’t there anymore

I told him if he want to cry den just cry.If he want to be angry with that gal den just let it be.Curse her if he wanted to,I mean we are all humans,not saint,after all those hurt, still wish them well? Damn rite! Wish them well in hell! Haha!

And the night ends well,May droved me home,thanks May!
Reached the house,cried a little,haha, that’s why my eyes were swollen!
Went to bed once I had my bath
Woke up this morning and feels good!

drink..drunk & passed out..dats just NORMAL!

2008-06-23T17:00:00.000-07:00

Tonite I will be out having drinks, haven’t been out for a drink for quite some time..
I mean a real “drink”..Hahaha. Wonder how the night will ends..Haha

Everyone were surprised when they found out that I am staying alone
That’s the true freedom! I can get drunk shockingly easy!
But I always managed to get home before I throw-up!! Clap clap!!
And yes, I get to lie in any part of my house, in whatever position I wanted without having to worry someone will snap a picture of it!
I will never let myself in the room when I am drunk!!

I remembered the 2 times I was really drunk..

The first time was this year, I was with 3 friends of mine
Ah Chan, William and Crystal, we finished up 7 bottles of red wine!!
I just cant recall how we goggled up all the wine
Do I need to elaborate more on how the night ends?
I was so drunk that I was carried into the car..Haha
And I vomited like hell too..in the car..Haha
My friend had to carried me up to the 4th floor,when I was home..suddendly I am all awake!
Basic instinct or I am faking it so someone will carry me up?!!
I shooed them all out, locked the door and rushed to the toilet..
All I remembered..I woke up the next morning..half-dead on my sofa!!

The second time also in this year..Damn! 2008! What a year!
And it was me and a friend of mine.. a gal, Wow..that’s what we called ‘girl power’!! Haha!!
We finished up the whole bottle of Chivas in less than 2 hours!
I am perfectly okay at that time..till I made the biggest mistake of joining another group of friends.I drank a few glasses of beer and I felt the world is spinning around me!
I quickly asked a friend of mine, Dax..a very good looking guy to send me home
He drank quite a lot too that night,the first night I met him was so unforgettable!
He is the first guy I met that 2 gals fighting over for!! I mean a real fight..pulling hair, the cat-claws and my God! That’s all I can say!

The moment we reached my house, he asked me am I okay? do I need escort to go up?
I said No! I am perfectly well..I opened the door and the next thing,I was sitting on the ground..Haha
And he being the gentleman, he quickly got out and carried me up..
And when we reached the third floor, we both fell..I am heavy..Haha..so shy...Haha
And we sit on the staircase, laughing our heart out..when we both grasp some air
I continued up and he back to his car,stayed there till he is okay to drive!
He said I am cruel for not letting him to stay over! Haha…
Yeh,I can be real cruel at times! And bitchy too!!

That will be two of my most unforgettable nites of mishap
Hopefully tonight will ends well! Haha!

let go?!! wat to let go?!!

2008-06-23T13:36:00.000-07:00

Went out with a friend of mine on last Friday night for a girly talk

I know she needed a listener .. Or should I say ..we both in need of listeners
There we are.. confided in each other our bumps when we should be out having fun

And that’s when I found out .. It doesn’t kill to miss someone
It is when you are missing someone..And you cant let anyone around you know

And you have to hide all the feelings ..And keep them all out of sight
That's what kills
It is hard when things turn awful
But it is even harder to act “ok” when the hearts is bleeding

But u have no choice but doing so.. Because.. excuse me, hello, I am 25 now!!
I cant call up my friends and tell them how much the break-up hurts me
Most my friends are married with kids!
And do i need to remind myself that they never bless the relationship..

When I am home, I sent this angel of mine a sms
I told her that night will be the last time I’ll ever want to mention or talk bout him

Ever again ..I am really tired, extremely exhausted having to go through the hurts again and again

He finally apologized for not keeping his words

But does it mean anything anymore to me?
Will it make me feel better?
It sure does if he will to realize it before he made the comes back
One of my angel joked with me the other day, she said it is too late for me to know the truth now She is right .. It is too late

And while I was watching the football match this morning

My lovely little brother, Nickie sent me a sms
He said he is disappointed with me,reading my blogs gave him the impression that I am still not letting go
And if he will ever read my blog again
I will want to tell him something.. haha
He always felt sorry to me..thinking that he is the one that got me think of the past
And I always tell him “no, it’s not your fault”

But this time, It is his fault! Haha.. I will never want to think of him and he got me thinking!

And this morning, a friend of mine said he is in a love-crisies
I told him I am a loser in love too soI can’t contribute any advices
Just one..“If you really love that someone, don’t let go”
That is all I can say ..
And he asked me what makes me let go then?

And a sweet hunky I met through friendster "Brian"
too poped the same question after he viewed my private photos

And I replied.. I never let go.. how can I let go on something I don’t have
So yes now, this blog, this page, will be the last time I will ever mention bout him!!

Praise the Lord!!
HE must be waiting for a long time to finally hear this from me!
Thank U Lord..for everything..and most importantly..for not giving up on me..
Honestly..I am most blessed in my life the moment I got to know Jesus!
Hallelujah..If not because of Him..I will not survive till today!
Love U Lord!

"Eye on Malaysia..."

2008-06-20T03:10:00.000-07:00

Never really remember the last time I actually
SLEEP..
Ever since I accepted the fact that we cant even be friends
I slept the most 3 hours a day

Tried getting some help with the alcohol
It works

But it got me a real hard time waking up the next day!!

A friend of mine asked
So what did u miss in him
The relationship or the friendship
I said both
I lost both

Many love to ask did I ever regret getting back with him
I said I am very confused too

Yes, he brought me lots of sweet memories
I smile when I recall them

But at the same time..i cry recalling them..

Confusing ya..

Cleaned the house the other day and found my diaries
Found out that I had fallen in love with him in year 2001
Lots of twist and turns

We got back September last year
No one really knows how happy I am inside
I’ve always pray for a day
That he will finally stop walking and take a look behind
And see me standing there all the while

Waiting for him .. haha..I am silly.. I know..

Then we got awful and decided to end it in January this year
Everyone including myself thought “I will be perfectly okay”

It is not the first time
Moreover .. I have been thru things worst than this
And I am still okay

Guess I’ve over-estimated myself ..AGAIN!
It hurts so much that every time I woke up
I felt an indescribable pain in the heart

Or should say..it hurts so much that it woke me up from my sleep

I kept asking the people around me
“why” and “how”

Why he did this to me?
How could he forgets me so easily?
Why why why and why
How how how and how

When I found out that the "Eye on Malaysia" will be extended till this August 2008
I am very happy
I have always wanted to ride the fairy wheel with him
Funnily I had the ride before
But I can't recall I went there with him or with someone else
Because .. scarily.. in all I do..I’ve always wanted him to be the one beside me

I went to a Taiwanese restaurant for lunch
I love the place
And I cant recall if I really been to the place with him before
I been there but is it with him?!
Or someone else ?!!
Because wherever I go
In whatever I do
In my heart
I wanted him to be the person right next to me

And that will always remain as a wishful dream
That will never ever comes true..

two commonly asked questions..

2008-06-19T03:13:00.000-07:00

Recently I made a few of new friends
Some through friendster
And 2 introduced by my Sis.Jon
And I am commonly asked these 2 questions

The first one
“Where do you usually go for clubbing?”
Honestly, I don’t really club
Maybe my appearance does the trick
I seldom hit the clubs
Mostly will be 3-4 times in a year!!

People hit the clubs for numerous reasons
Most commonly heard reasons were
“I had a bad day, gotto relax”
“Out chilling with friends”
And the top of the list is
“Get to know new friends!”

I have only one reason for being there
I wish to bump into him
As I know he loves clubbing

I know I am silly
Everywhere I go
I’ll pray I’ll get to see him

I once told him that
And he replied
“Now you don’t need to look around anymore,
I am here right beside you”

He is right.. partly..
I don’t really need to look around anymore
Wishing to bump into him
As that will never be
I’ll never ever get to see him anymore
He is a different person now
He isn’t the one that I am madly in-love with
He just isn’t there anymore

Ok.

The second question
“Why are you still single?”
Goosshh!!
Is that a question??!!
Why am I still single??
I am single Because I am single lor!

I will want to be loved by someone
But I don’t want to rush into it
I’ve always get lots of troubles with
“It won’t hurt to give it a try!”
Damn! It hurts!
And now my new policy is
“Oh, really?!! Thanks but NO!”

morning walk -_____________-"

2008-06-18T18:30:00.000-07:00

I walked to work on Tuesday morning
I love to walk whenever I am being troubled

It’s a great way to clear the mind
Or the fact that I had a very heavy breakfast

And I need to walk the pounds away

It only took less than 10mins with car
But it took me almost an hour of walk to reach to the office
I had opt for a short-cut
A new road I’ve only been once
There was once a taxi driver used the road before
I can’t really recall it

But it won’t hurt to have a try

So, Yea, I started my Journey at 8.45am

I walked from my house to the Cempaka LRT Station
And from there I walked to the short-cut
There were houses all along the road
Wooden houses
And lots n lots of factories
And yes, the sun
I didn’t expect it to be so shiny
Should have bring along an umbrella

Speaking of factories
Meaning lots and lots of laborers
Those Bangladesh, Indonesian, Myanmar and many others
These are those moments I wish to have all the men killed

As if they haven’t seen a women in their entire life
Along the way
I’ve heard “fewwwittt” “amoii” “leng lui”
Honestly though there are lots of people there
But it did frightened me
As most of the population there were these maniacs

So I decided to get the hell of the freaking place
But I am stucked in that place

Honestly I don’t even know where I was!!
I looked for a road to connect me back to the main road
I saw lots of cars heading to a direction
So I followed

That’s what my great-grandma thought me
When you are lost
Look at the cars around you
Head to the direction where most cars heading to
As that must be the way out to the main road
So I happily heading to that direction

And my thought was yeah, that’s the road that will get me somewhere near my office
But as I approached the main road
I was quite worried
As the place is still so 'new' to me

But I calmed myself
Elooo.. I can get a taxi anytime when I reached the main road
And yes!
I saw a quite familiar name
“Kilang Versatile”
I’ve seen that factory before!!
So it meant I am not that lost!!

And when I finally out of that freaky housing/factories area
To the main road
Only then I found out
I am just somewhere near my house
Goosshh!!!

All the walk
If I were to follow the main road and not the short-cut
It will only take me few minutes to reach to where I stand at that moment

I wanted to grab a cab
But I didn’t and I continued my walk
And yes follows the main road
And yes, there were lots of drivers would look at me
And yes, some like those maniacs too
Some I do returned a smile
Some I just ignored and continue walking

And yes I reached the office around 9.35am!!

Just like in our life
Most the time we said “no hurts to give a try”
Is that so??!!
Sometimes a wrong decision killed

A wrong try ends up lots of unnecessary miseries

Many advised me he isn’t the one
I ignored their advices
Thinking “it doesn’t hurt to give a try”
I love him
I wanted to give us a chance
And now I am left dazed, confused and hurt

And yes sometimes when we thought yeah! we reached our goal
Only to find that there is still a long way to go!
Our life is a real long journey
It hurts when we followed the wrong directions
And especially me! turn and turn and back to where I started!
But never give up

It is still a long way
And I won’t know what’s ahead if I don’t continue the walk

I sent him a few very nasty messages weeks ago
I felt very bad ever-since
Because it just made me feel like a complete bitch
I should have just let him alone
No,not should..I must!!
Just like those people I saw on that morning
Some I smiled and some I just walked away
Yes, we should appreciate and cherish people while we still can
And I wanted him to be in the list

But I know it’s impossible

I sent him a message and apologized
At least now I can really let go
We don’t owe each other anything anymore
And this time I’ve lost not just the relationship
And the friendship
And the chance of us being friends
That is not an option for me

That is the only way to get me out of all these emotional messiness

one of those days

2008-06-12T00:59:00.000-07:00

Today was just one of those days..
Where everything I did reminded me of you
And every song I heard somehow related to you..I hate days like today

Many asked ..Why I posted the picture of me n you in the slide
My answer is..The one that is in the picture is the one that truly loves me
It is a picture taken when 2 persons are truly in love with each otherYes, you are a different person now
You aren’t the same person that was in the picture
It doesn’t matter because the one that I am in love with is the You in the picture
Not the one You are now

People ask …“Are you two going out”
And it hurts to reply..“No, we were just friends”
When the fact we spent the nights in each other embrace

There are times when I cant decide..
Whether to see you or not
I want to see you because I miss you
But at the same timeI don’t want to see you
Because every time I do
The fact that you don’t see me the way
That I see you hurts me even more

Nothing hurts more than realizing you meant everything to me
But I meant nothing to you

I made a choice..To finally let go
Is that a choice...
Or the only way for me

As I can’t stand the pain

Yes..It is better to be alone
No one can hurt me that way
I once heard

“you never truly love a person until the mere thought of you hurting the one you loved
is enough to break yourown heart”
And all I can say is
I truly love you
And you don’t

Friends asked..“ever regret of getting back with him”
I don’t know the answer
How can I explain this feeling

It’s just that
My heart hurts so much …

Some said ..Sometime all I need is a broken heart
To realize that something even better
Is right in front of my eyes
Just waiting to be found
I pray they are right..

You said

“For my case, I can’t love you for all my life,
I can only love youfor eternity”
And your “eternity” only meant for 3 months

Lost days, pictures fade

YOU ARE MY BIGGEST JACKPOT

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS+HAPPY 2010

I wish you were here

never regret anything that made you smile

Can u forgive yourself?

Loves Just Hurts

<3<3 SUNDAY <3<3!!!

MY "贵人"!!!

Be Magnified!!

TIMA KASIH!!!

~~ sherry ~~

~~ tired + sick ~~

~~ DUNNO WHY ~~

~~~ for you ~~~

HATE (VS) MISS!!

MY LOVE..SORRY

zzzZZzzzz

Woman-Beater..

Unfaithful Lovers

Emmanuel ^^!

MS.LOH LI CHIN – THE NEW CHAPTER! ^0^!!

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GREAT WEEKEND ^^!!!

MS.LOH LI CHIN!!!! part 2!!

MS.LOH LI CHIN!!!!

....^^!

thanks Gary!!!

FUBU..Wat d fCUk?!!!!

HE WILL GUIDE OUR WAY..AND BRING US BACK!

dudu..dudu.."halo,it's 988!!"

heartbreaks in silence..

im back!!! YEN is back!!

sleep+sleep+sleep!!

paisey paisey..>_<

my heart bleeds for u and u dont even see me...

MakeLove (VS) Have Sex

OMG!! OMGG!! and OMG!!!!

u have me for 24/7!!

the nite ends perfect!!

drink..drunk & passed out..dats just NORMAL!

let go?!! wat to let go?!!

"Eye on Malaysia..."

two commonly asked questions..

morning walk -_____________-"

one of those days

sherry

tired + sick

DUNNO WHY

~ for you ~